"Because I'm Kaizer Isabelle." • Bae Jinyoung FF

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K A I Z E R

As we reached our house, Jihoon immediately made his way to the kitchen. Kahit kailan talaga ang takaw nang isang yun.

"Pahingi ako neto, Bilbilq ah?" how can I resist? Hawak nya na yung chocolate.

I just rolled my eyes in the blue and headed upstairs to change clothes. I badly want to rest. I'm actually sleepy and tired even though it was just 12 noon.

I lazily opened the door of my room and was about to close it but I startled as I saw Jihoon.

"Yah. You scared me." I told him. I didn't notice him, neither his presence, following me in my room.

"Hindi mo ba ako naramdaman na nakasunod sayo?" he asked swallowing the chocolates which belongs to Guanlin.

"Perhaps? I didn't feel your presence though." I shrugged.

"You know what, napapansin ko lang 'to." Jihoon started. "Lately, lagi ka nalang natutulala and when I'm approaching you, bigla ka nalang nagiging busy. What's happening to you, Isabelle?"

Umiwas ako ng tingin. I don't know that I'm spacing out these past few days. I am not aware with my actions, anyways.

"I don't want to push my assumption, Isabelle, pero dahil ba 'to kay Jinyoung?" seryosong tanong ni Jihoon.

I looked at him. "Jinyoung? How did you say so?"

"Parehas kasi kayong nagkakaganyan netong mga nakaraang araw. May nangyari ba?" Jihoon asked.

Pumasok na ako sa kwarto and sat on my bed. Jihoon also came in and stood in front of me.

"I'm asking you, Kaizer. Anong nangyayari sayo? May problema ka ba? Tell me." I don't wanna look into his eyes. Even if he's my bestfriend, natatakot ako sa kanya. It was the first time I heard him called me by my first name.

Napatungo ako. I don't know what to say. Hindi ko rin alam ang nangyayari.

"Look at me, Isabelle." he held my chin to make me look at him. "I want to clarify something."

With his serious tone, I became more scared at him. "W-What?"

"Do you like Jinyoung?"

I frowned. What is he talking about?

Wait. Do I like Jinyoung? Fuck, what?

"N-No." I answered while simply removing my shoes and grabbing my slippers under my bed.

"I thought, you aren't a liar?" Jihoon asked with a blank expression. What's with this guy? I'm starting to feel awkward right now.

"Yeah, I'm not. I don't like J-Jinyoung." for the nth time, nag-iwas ako ng tingin.

Jihoon sat down beside me and I was surprised when he suddenly cupped my face and tears were forming in the corner of his eyes. What's with the sudden change of emotions? "Look straightly into my eyes and tell me that you don't like Jinyoung."

Tiningnan ko sya sa mata but I can't speak. Why the hell I can't? What's happening? If I don't like Jinyoung, why can't I tell my bestfriend about it?

Is it possible that I like that Bae Jinyoung without my knowing? Fuck. This is frustrating.

"Is your silence means 'yes'? You like him, don't you?" I can see the pain in his eyes. Jihoon. Why are you like this? Wag mo namang pabigatin ang loob ko, please.

He let go of my face and heave a deep sigh. "I want to be true to you and to myself also. Hindi ko na itatago pa 'to, Isabelle. I like you. I really like you—no scratch that. I love you more than as my bestfriend."

Dahil sa sinabi ni Jihoon, bigla akong napalingon sa kanya with a pair of shocked eyes. Napaawang din ang bibig ko in surprise.

"Jihoon..."

"I like you from the very start. Noong una tayong nagkita during the party in your house nung bata pa tayo, I already admire you." kwento nya. "Until we became bestfriends, my feelings for you went deeper and deeper each day we're together."

I... I don't know his feelings towards me. Am I that numb not to notice what he feels? He's my bestfriend and yet seems like I don't know him well dahil hindi ko man lang mabasa ang kilos nya. O baka naman, namimisunderstood ko lang mga ipinapakita nya sakin?

"Pero umalis ka, umuwi ka sa Taiwan at hindi bumalik dito sa Seoul ng ilang taon." he continued. I want to stop him from story telling. "Hindi ko alam kung babalik ka pa ba o hindi na so I tried to forget about you but my feelings never changed nor faded. I still love you up until now."

Jihoon wiped my cheeks. Am I crying? "Shh. Don't cry. Ako pa rin naman 'to. Si Park Jihoon na bestfriend mo."

"I'm sorry, Jigoo." he hugged me and caress my back. "I... I only sees you as my bestfriend. No more, no less."

"I know. Sorry for messing up with your mind." humiwalay sya sa pagkakayakap. "Bestfriend?"

He lend his hand in front. Asking for shake hands. I smiled at tinanggap ang kamay nya. "Bestfriend."

Yumuko sya at may ibinulong. Para syang nagdadasal sa itsura nya ngayon. "Hays. Mukhang natalo ako ni Jinyoung."

He lifted up his face and smiled sincerely at me. "But don't expect na ititigil ko na ang nararamdaman ko para sayo. Let me love you even just in a distance."