Shawn Mendes Imagines

XX ✧ ALWAYS AND FOREVER

*Listen to the song while you read this so you can cry like I did :))))

S H A W N ' S  P O V

  Silence lingered over us as we entered the house. I sat the keys down and looked around. What once was a warm place filled with love was now cold and depressing.

  I ran a hand through my hair as I looked at my daughter. Her back was turned to me; She just stood there in silence.

  I didn't know what to do, or what to say. I don't think that there was anything that could've been said or done to make the moment better.

  The two of us just watched her mother, my wife, take her last breath. Nothing would ever be the same again. The biggest piece of us was just ripped away, and she wasn't coming back.

"Ella," I called out her name, "Ella, baby." She was fixated in her position, still not responding to me. I walked up to her and placed a hand on her shoulder, only for her to jerk out of my grasp.

  "Don't shut me out, baby. I know you're hurting, but please don't. You're all I have." My throat burned and I felt my voice crack.

  "She's gone..." Her words came out small. She turned around and looked at me. I could feel my heart shatter all over again.

  "She was just here yesterday, and now," Her hand reached up and wiped the tear that rolled down her cheek, "And now she's just not." Her bottom lip began to tremble. I grabbed her, pulling her into my chest.

  "It hurts, dad." She began to sob. I could feel her hot tears soaking my shirt, but I didn't care.

  I couldn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes. Seeing my daughter cry was worst than any pain I've ever felt in my life. She gripped me tighter and I ran my hands through her hair.

  "I want you to listen to me, okay?" I sniffed. She nodded, still clutching onto me for dear life. I grabbed her shoulders and held her at arm's length. Her face was red and blotchy, and her eyes were bloodshot.

  She had eyes like her mother.

  "I need you to be strong for me. I know I'm not as good at this parenting thing as your mom was, but I'm trying." I let out a shaky breath, "I'm hurting as much as you are. Your mom meant everything to me. She was my world."

  "Now you have no world." She muttered. I shook my head. 

  "No, you're wrong. She was my world, but you, you're my universe." My finger reached under her eye, wiping the tears from her waterline.

  "I just need you to be patient with me, and know that I'm trying. We're gonna get through this, okay? You and me."

  She lowered her gaze to the ground. "I don't think I can, daddy." Her tears began to fall onto the hardwood, leaving little stains.

  "Don't say that." My eyebrows furrowed, and I tilted her head up with my fingers. "You think your mom would want to see you like this?" She shook her head.

  "Exactly. If you can't be strong for me, at least do it for her." She nodded, wiping her tears once more.

  "Things are gonna be so different." She whispered.

   I nodded. "Yea, that's why I need you by my side. It's just the two of us now."

  "I love you." She wrapped her arms around my neck, hugging me. "Please don't leave me."

  "I won't. I promise." I hugged her tightly. Now that y/n was gone, it was just me and Ella. Since the day she was born, she's had the top spot in my heart. I would never let anything hurt her, or get in between us. She was my life now, and I vowed to protect her until I took my last breath.

  "Just you and me, Ella May. Always and forever."

  And even though we spent the night sobbing in each other's arms, I knew that y/n was watching over us. I had a feeling everything was going to be alright.

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idk why but i was an emotional wreck writing this. am i okay???