Though I'll miss you like literal hell, and bitch and whine the whole way about your college experiences and your adult life.. I'm very proud and very, very happy for you deep down. I guess most of my fit throwing harbors from the fear and jealousy I have, for who knows what new experiences and new people and new friendships you'll form? You could find another bestfriend. A better bestfriend. And I, your small hometown, younger bestfriend will soon be forgotten. At least in my fears that is what happens. I'm also scared of the distance... both physical and relationship wise. Distance is hard to manage and I never wanna lose the friendship I have with you.. soul mate best friends as we call it. Many people say once someone goes off for college you drift off and I don't want that to happen.. so in order to protect that I try to ignore the idea of you leaving for college or graduating happening at all.. though it's coming. It's right upon us and I'm not ready for it at all. I want my bestfriend right here in the same town when I need her or when she needs me and not cities over. Not hours away. I'm scared of how much I'm gonna miss.. you and the things happening in your life. I'm gonna miss you so goddamn bad.. I just am not ready to let go of the period of my life where I met you, gotten to know you and declared you as my bestfriend and vice versus. Though I am ready to see you follow your dreams and smile and be happy, and find and experience new things and new knowledge because you deserve the goodness that comes from those situations. You deserve all the good in the world and more and I pray it comes to you in showers. I adore you and will love you no matter what, and will always be here regardless if you need me anymore or not. I can't wait to watch you succeed, and grow into the beautiful person you are.
Love, your redheaded trumpet playing, fangirling,bestfriend soulmate.
