dear those who continue to point out my flaws with or without meaning to

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Yes, I am well aware that I am tall.. taller than most boys my age, and almost as tall as my own father. Im very aware that tall people tend to have big feet and that I have hilariously large size 11 feet, No the thought never slipped my mind but you made sure to remind me upon every meet up after time spent apart. "Excersise can really help and improve your mood" you say, which has been proven scientifically and while I do excersise every day, in some way shape or form, my body physique does not display one who excersises, and you make sure to add that little tip upon every shopping trip, every time i say I'm bored, or everytime I look in the mirror. Though you dont need to because I promise you my own mind tells me this stuff on repeat 24 hours a day, no cannot even escape this inner monologue when i sleep it follows me into my nightmares and has me awake gasping for air, tears stinging my eyes as I eagerly fight not to let them fall. I look into a mirror and again that inner voice reminds me "too tall, too big, too wide, too much" I do as the magazines and horoscopes and countless online blogs and youtubers tell me... i follow theor healthy rituals by book, and guess what... I'm still the "FAT" girl. So please.. stop reminding me of it constantly.. If you have nothing nice to say...just do not speak to me. My insecurities take a bigger toll on me than you ever will.

Love, the owner of the body you mock

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