Strange Attraction (editing/rewriting)

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Congratulations! What are their names? I'm sorry for your loss. The compliments and condolences flooded in when i gave birth to our kids. We decided to change the names for the kids to Sylvia and Beau. I was hard seeing our stillborn baby girl. She looked different from her siblings. Finn didn't want to hold her, he refused, but i didn't. We got to have a box of her things to take home to cope with her being gone. Although Finn and I were grieving, we still remained strong for our other 2 kids.

After the birth Finn cut back his hours at work, but when he was gone, he called often to hear the babies and see them. Of course our families came over to smother myself and the kids with love and support. I felt grateful to have them.

We didn't have a baby shower, but with all the things we collected over the course of 9 months and the things our families and friends brought over, it was enough to hold us over for a lifetime.

Gordon and Atticus did make an appearance at the hospital, but since then our communication has been strained. It feels awkward talking to him.

My thoughts were interrupted by Finn suddenly speaking. "We should get a nanny."

"Why?"

"So we could have some alone time. It's been 3 months and you haven't even left the house. It'll be good to go out and do things. Maybe we could go on a date. And if we had a nanny we could do things more often."

"I'm not comfortable with that."

"I'm getting one anyway. Then you can start getting pretty for me again and we can pick up where we left off." Finn gestures to the chunky white spot on my shirt.

"Maybe i would be more compelled to get pretty and clean up if I was caring for 2 newborns by myself. You almost never help me because if you did you wouldn't even be worried about how i looked."

"Which is all the more reason to get a nanny. I miss the time we had together." He leans closer to me on the bed and trails a hand up my thigh.

"I'm going to shower and we can revisit this conversation tomorrow." Finn follows behind me into the bathroom. "What? Are you gonna watch?"

"I'm getting in with you."

"You had a shower earlier. You're clean."

"Theres other things to do in a shower that aren't washing up."

"I'm not in the mood."

"Liv, we haven't had sex in almost 5 months. I need something."

"Go masturbate." I step into the hot shower and proceed to clean myself from the mess of today. While I'm lathering myself, a gust of cool air fills the shower as Finn opens the door and steps in behind me.He begins to help me clean myself before groping me. "Get out."

"Liv, I need you right now." I feel him get hard on my back as he grinds and grabs my breast in his hand. He uses the other to slide it down my abdomen.

"I said i'm not in the mood." Ignoring me, Finn continues at the same pace. "Finn, get away from me. I don't want to fuck you."

This catches his attention and he stops. "What is your problem? I've been trying for you and you wont accept me. Do you even want to get married because you're acting like you don't love me?" He steps out of the shower and wraps himself in a towel. Before i could answer, one of the babies started to cry and Finn stormed out of the room. Probably for the best.

I finish my shower grab my robe. Back in the bedroom, Finn has Sylvia and he's changing her diaper. "Put her back to bed after that please, I don't want her off her schedule."