Alcatraz

Letter 27- N I A L L

28 July 2014

 

 

Zayn…?

 

So it’s been a few days and I don’t know if you got my last letter or not, or if you’re busy or maybe you’re not allowed to post anything with the threats going on? I’m hoping I haven’t scared you off with my confession or anything. I mean, you said yourself you loved me first, right? Or maybe it wasn’t you at all. Was it another prisoner? Or was it just a joke, a test to see if you could get me to foolishly pour my heart out to you?

 

Please, please tell me this whole thing hasn’t been just a game to you. I want to say I know you well enough to know that you’d never do such a thing, but the reality is that I know only as much as you’re willing to tell me through your letters. Sure, we met in person once, but that’s just it. It was once. How am I to know you haven’t been lying to me, playing with me like a child plays with a toy, only to throw it away when it gets old?

 

I’m sorry, I know you would never do that, I just had to get that awful thought out of my head and onto paper. Maybe now it will stop haunting me. I’ve been a lot more worried than I let on in my last letter and the anxiety is starting to toy with my thoughts and emotions. My friends are all worried about me. They must realise something is off, but I doubt they know any specifics. I think they’ve forgotten my interest in Alcatraz and you, specifically, and I’m in no rush to remind them. They’re better off not knowing that I have any involvement, especially now that bomb threats have surfaced. Speaking of that, the Tumblr user has deactivated, or at least changed his/her username since I last checked, so maybe the media coverage and FBI search scared him/her away? Fingers crossed. I’m not sure if you know anything, but I’d be eternally grateful if you could convey any news you receive on the matter. I need to know you’re safe. And if you really are sick of talking to me, I’ll leave you alone afterwards, on my honour, but I’m literally begging you: let me know you’re in no danger.

 

I still love you, no matter what. I won’t retract my statement. If you don’t return those feelings any longer, that’s fine, but if there’s a God out there, I pray to him that you still love me. Stay safe.

 

Love always,

 

Niall x

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