Alcatraz

Letter 30- N I A L L

***So I think most of you understood that the last letter wasn't actually from Zayn, but if you didn't, you do now! Keep in mind: Niall's letters are always the italicised ones and Zayn's are bold. Bonus chapters are normal print. Niall wrote the letter as a sort of coping mechanism, so he's living in a fantasy world in his head in which Zayn is alive and well. Hope that helps the rest of you :) Thank you for all the I HATE YOU BUT LOVE YOU AT THE SAME TIME comments. You guys are so cute. Love youuuu <3 ***

16 August 2014

 

 

Hi Zayn,

 

I was so happy to get your last letter. I can’t even tell you what I would’ve done if you were gone. I’d go fuckin’ mad, most likely. Good thing I don’t have to experience that, though, right? I’m relieved you’re okay and even more elated to hear that you’ve been moved somewhat closer at least. With all that’s gone on at Alcatraz, what is to happen with your trial? Maybe they’ll take things easier on you, yeah? I’m not entirely sure if that’s allowed, but your lawyer could maybe work with it. I’m hopeful, at least.

 

I miss you too, Zayn. Before all this, I would’ve questioned if it were possible to miss a person I’ve only officially met once before, but this constant ache within my heart tells me that the pain I feel in your absence is real. I know you said you can’t tell me where you’ve been relocated yet, but be sure to tell me as soon as you can. I want to see your beautiful face again. It’s been far too long, don’t you think?

 

My friends are all right, I suppose. I was (understandably) quite upset about the bombing, and eventually they put the pieces together and figured out that I hadn’t stopped writing you as I’d originally led them to believe. Liam was the angriest, I suppose. He’s the protective one, if you’ll recall. I received a good tongue-lashing (you’d think he was my mother or something, for fuck’s sake), but thankfully Louis and Harry jumped in to save the day. Perhaps it wasn’t the best time for them to come out and rub their burgeoning relationship in my face, but to be fair they don’t know how deeply in love with you I’ve fallen. Anyway, Liam was so happy for the two of them (it was like he hadn’t seen it coming at all; the two of them were about as subtle as a slap to the face, if you ask me) that he was reduced to mush the rest of the day. You would think he was the one who announced he was in love with his best friend. He didn’t do that, just for clarification. No need to be jealous; I’m all yours babe. Anyway, they’ve been taking good care of me since they found out. Louis and Harry are here the most often, surprisingly. Liam’s got some new job or something that’s kept him busy the past few months. It’s okay, though. The lovebirds are fair company—when they’re not making out or practically having sex while I’m still in the room, that is. Oh, Zaynie, if you were here, I’d love to repay them for that lovely show. Wouldn’t that be fun? Maybe one day we can make that a reality.

 

A proper date sounds lovely, but to be honest, just being in your presence would be fine by me. I can’t wait to be able to do normal boyfriend things with you. I’ve never had that, actually. You may find this hard to believe since I’m so devastatingly sexy and all, but I’ve never had an actual boyfriend. I had a couple girlfriends back in my mid-teen years, but that was mainly so my friends would get off my back and stop asking why I didn’t have a pretty lady to call mine like they all did. The girls were all too soft and small for my taste, though. I always missed that feeling of being protected, but that was supposed to be my job as the man in the relationship, I suppose. Not that I’m saying I’ll be the girl in ours, mind you! Anyway, what I’m getting at is that this will be a touch-and-go learning experience for us both. I’m not worried in the least bit, because when it’s you and I, baby, what can go wrong?

 

University is starting up again soon, unfortunately, but I have a lot of new material and inspiration for my Journalism classes, I think. All thanks to you, no less. I’m not sure how much I actually want to share about you because I’m selfish and want you all to myself, but the journalist in me will figure something out, I’m sure.

 

I hope you’re still doing well wherever you are. Keep in touch! Oh, and Yin-Yang and I both have kisses waiting for you when we see you again.

 

Love you lots,

 

Niall xx

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