Behind What Was Seen (Undertale Fanfiction)

realization

Chara's p.o.v

I didn't realize I was just sitting there, I was so lost in my thoughts.

"uhh.. chara..? are you alright..? you just went quiet..."

I looked up at him, unsure what exactly to say.. I only knew him a short while.. and even in that time we've spent 'together', I hardly knew him.. other than the fact he was a big pushover.. I.. I ... think... I enjoyed his company.. is this what enjoyment is..?

Am I supposed to be happy with his good doings..? Is the happiness from all he really wants..?
He was so kind and asked nothing in return..
and look at me pushing him away..
Maybe.. I should just be open and more relaxed with him..

While i was sick in bed, I remember Asriel had asked me what was one of the things I wanted to do most, I thought it was sudden and very specific. I answered hesitantly.. not knowing his plan on taking me.. to a snowy world of wonder..

This little.. 'goat' boy was the one who kept trying to make me happy despite the odds of failure.. in fact, he was the only one who really tried and make me happy.. He kept trying even though I proved to him it would only end in failure.

And all I've been doing is pushing him away.. because I'm scared to get too close only to get used or be hurt..

I looked up into Asriels eyes, he was still concerned as to why I was silent.

He.. cared for me..

I let those words echo in my mind, it's so.. different and new.. a strange fuzzy feeling..

Monsters.. knew love better then humans claim too..

I began to feel tears fill up my eyes, as Asriel grows blurry.

"Oh C-chara! Are you alright? Did I say something wrong..?"

I looked up at him, I could feel the regret and guilt plastered to my face as his expression showed sympathy for me in return.

It burned to be crying in the cold, but I couldn't help it..
Clattering my teeth, and sobbing at the same time.. I make a confession to him.
"Asriel.. I-I'm so sorry for hurting you.. for pushing you a-away when you were only trying to help.. I.. I.. got scared and thought you only wanted to trick me.. I didn't know if I could trust you.. and now I feel like a f-fool for not giving you a chance to explain or open up..
I-"

He caught me off guard when he pulled me in for a tight hug. My eyes widened in surprise, as he buried his face into my shoulder. I froze; and not only from the cold. My body tensed up, but i fought to relax because it felt..
Like it could trust this person.. that I was safe..