Survival of the fittest

Chapter 11.

Alexander's innocent crystal eyes was the very first thing I saw when I gained consciousness the next time. My whole body felt heavily drugged by all the different medication that my doctors probably have given me but surprisingly, the pounding pain in my head was completely gone.
I don't know if the pain was gone because the medication that I have been given finally works or because my body is too damn numb to feel anything, but I wasn't complaining. All I could focus in at the moment was the beautiful art in front of me. Alec looked at me with so much love in his crystal eyes that it made me want to scream out loud like some kind of maniac in pure happiness.
I won't lie, this was actually the first time that I truly was afraid of dying. When I first got diagnosed with brain cancer, I promised myself that I never would fall into a depression and that no matter what, I wouldn't start fearing something as stupid as death, but everything changed when Alec came into my life. When I met him for the first time at the hospital, he changed something inside of me that I didn't thought was possible.
I have never been the type who likes to open up my heart and pour my soul into something that I do, but Alexander makes me want to tear down those walls around my heart. For some weird reason, I want to be a better person and show Alec and my family that I'm not that reckless and idiotic when it comes to my life.
- Magnus, can you hear me?
Alec's voice was filled with so much worry that it sent shivers down my spine and the faint red colour in his crystal eyes made me realise that he actually might have been crying.
- Yeah, I muttered and tried my very best to keep my two tired eyes open, but it felt like I was failing miserably
- Baby, you really need to keep your eyes open. Can you do that for me? Alexander asked and carefully took one of my cold hands in his own
- Yes, I answered
My response made Alec smile and that's all I really needed to keep fighting to keep my tired eyes open.
- I have been so incredible worried about you, Mags. Your doctors told us that we might actually have lost you this time, Alec said and the smile disappeared from his pink lips
- I'm sorry, I whispered
- You have nothing to apologise for. You're awake now and that's all that matters at the moment, Alec said
I nodded in response and started to look around in the hospital room, trying to spot my parents, but no one of them was nowhere to be seen.
- Where are my parents? I asked and tried my best to sit up in the bed
- Your mother got a phone call a few minutes ago and your father told me that he had to use the bathroom
- Oh, I answered
Alexander dragged his hand through my raven hair and before I knew it, he placed a light kiss on my cheek.
- Don't worry, they will be back soon
I only nodded my head in response again and couldn't keep the stupid smile of my lips. For some reason, it warmed my heart that Alec still was here beside me and that he hadn't left me when things got complicated.
- Why are you smiling? Alec asked
- I'm just so happy that you're still here with me, I answered and felt how I blushed like freaking crazy
- Magnus, I would never leave you. Besides, our date night was far from over and I would only miss you too much if I would return back home
- I would miss you too, I answered
We stared at each other for a while and it honestly felt like I never in my life wanted to take my eyes off him. Alexander might actually be the most beautiful man I ever have seen.
- Alec, can I ask you something?
My question came all of a sudden and I wasn't actually really sure of what I was going to ask him, but I knew that I felt the need to keep some kind of conversation going.
- Of course, Alec answered
- When you asked me to keep my eyes open, yo called me baby. Why?
I could see how my weird question surprised Alec, but now it was too late to take the stupid question back.
- I'm not really sure. I remember how your father said that to you and it just felt so natural to say it myself, Alexander answered and smiled
- I don't mind, I answered
- That's good to hear
Our conversation ended when my parents came back into the room. Both of them hugged me like their lives depended on it and honestly, I was extremely happy to know that they truly cared about me this much. A few hours later, I was allowed to return back home and since it was beyond midnight, I was exhausted. My parents dropped Alexander at his house and he promised to come over to my house tomorrow after his day in school and make sure that I still was doing fine.   // TBC \\