Survival of the fittest

Chapter 21.

It wasn't until I had finished the last Harry Potter film that I realised how much time actually had passed since
I threw myself down on the couch in our living room after I had ate all the pancakes that I made for breakfast. I decided that I had spent too much of the day in front of the TV so I ran up the stairs to my bedroom where I got undressed and changed into my new clothes that my mom for some weird reason had put on my bed. I can not really blame her though because I'm 18 years old and still unable to wash my own clothes. Minutes later when I finally was dressed again, I left my room and continued down the stairs.
- Where are you going?
The sound of my father's voice could be heard from behind as I was about to open the front door and walk out.
- I need to grab some air, I answered and flashed my father a quick smile
- Do you want me to come with you?
- Dad, I'm not handicapped. I'm still able to leave the house all by myself,
I said and rolled my two eyes at him
- I know, but I do not want anything to happen to you, my dad answered and I could see the pain in his eyes
- I know, but I'll only be in the park down the street, I said and tried my best to calm him down much more
- Fine, my dad said and sighed loud
I flashed him one last smile before I left our house and started walking to the park a few blocks away. I used to come here a lot as a kid and it's still a very good place to come and think. I'm having my second chemotherapy this week tomorrow and I admit that I am terrified. I haven't had any kind of headache since my last visit at the hospital, but a lot can change in only a couple of seconds when it comes to my stupid brain cancer that I hate so damn much that I can not explain it. The park was empty as I arrived so I sat down on one of the many swings and started to push myself back and forth like a seven year old little baby. I watched how the pretty landscape kept moving around me and if I am going to be honest, it felt a little bit weird to know that the sun will still shine after I die and all the trees will still lose their leafs when the winter arrives sooner or later. When I first got diagnosed, I tried to not think of how everything will look like when I am gone, but now it is the only thing
I can think of and it truly scares me.
It's hard to believe that I will die and everyone around me will continue to live their lives like nothing is wrong. All I can do about it is hope that no one will forget about me, especially my parents who means the world to me and I do not know what I would do without them. They have always been there for me since I got cancer and I would never be able to survive all of this shit if it was not for them.
- Hi
The familiar voice made me look up from where I was staring at the sand and when my eyes came across Alec,
I couldn't help but smile like a idiot.
- Hey, I answered
Alec sat down on the swing next to mine and before I knew it, both of us looked like kids from kindergarten.
- Your father told me that you would be here, Alec said and smiled bright
- Yeah, I needed some air, I said and the smile did not leave my lips at all
- How was your day? Alexander said
- It was really good. I watched all the Harry Potter movie except the third one cause I do not like it, I answered
- I did not know my boyfriend was a huge nerd, Alec said and smiled big
- I'm full of surprises, I said happily
Alexander smiled in response and I couldn't help myself but take one of his hands in mine and press a couple of kisses against his pretty knuckles.
- I have missed you today, I said and felt how my face turned tomato red
- I have missed you too. School was boring and I'm seriously getting sick and tired of Jace, Alec said and sigh
- Why is that?
- He keeps asking me for help all the damn time even though I am the one who has been blind, Alexander said
- That's what brothers are for, I said and couldn't help myself but chuckle
- Being fucking annoying? Hell yeah
- Speaking of fucking annoying, do you have classes tomorrow? I asked him with a pair of questioning eyes
- Actually, no I don't. I wanted to ask you if you would like to come over to my house tomorrow? Alec answered
- Is your family home?
- Yes and they would absolutely love to meet the man I can't stop talking about, Alexander answered happily
- Okay, I'll come to your house after my chemotherapy, I said and smiled
- Really? Thank you so much, Mags
Alec stood up from the swing he sat on and placed himself in front of me and before I knew it, his lips were on mine. The kiss was passionate and I could not help but smile through it.
- They're going to love you, Alec said and looked at me with loving eyes
- I hope so, I answered and smiled

// TBC \\