Schizophrenia (edited)

Brother

June's POV
*outside at the living room*

Jisoo noona suddenly came out from Hanbin hyung's room. Her expression -, was kind of annoyed and sad. Well I can't really read people's eyes but yes I recognise that facial expression. It's the same as Bobby hyung's when he left my precious leader's room. Well technically, Im more fond to Hanbin hyung than the other except Jinhwan-, but Bobby's still my stepbrother and brothers should care abt each other. Making her way to sit beside the love of her life, while he - on the other hand just looked down. He have been gazing at the floor for quite some time now. I'm afraid that he might burn holes at the floor with his gaze. 'Why are you out so early noona?', breaking the silence - DK starts to let out his voice. She lend her head backwards, making herself comfortable to stare at the ceiling blankly. 'Just giving sometime for Jennie to sort some things between them. Hanbin's clueless, gosh. I can't believe he still couldn't get that Jennie is freakin' in love with him. The only one she ever loved and will love, still the same.', I don't understand this whole situation. What did she meant Hanbin hyung didn't recognised Jennie noona's feeling? I thouyhe felt the same? I was blinking -, obviously confused. 'You can't blame him. Well he has never been in love, and moreover after what had happened to him this past few years, had him all broken. Give him some time.', I realise I that I'm smiling. Well why wouldn't I? It's Jiwon hyung who's talking abt Hanbin hyung right here. Not Jaewon hyung but Jiwon hyung. As I was focusing on Bobby hyung's words, I saw Jaewon hyung smiling - satisfied, I can tell. It must've have been hard for him to keep all Hanbin hyung's dirty secrets all these years. Furthermore, he's his best buddy, he must've had wanted to make a better decision for Hanbin but why bother trying to convince him when he knows for sure that Hanbin hyung hates being told on - especially with his state. All of his masks have scattered, he must've been glad and relieved that we all still care for his best friend knowing him in that condition. 'Bobby hyung. Why don't you...uhm...kind of go and talk with him. I can't bare to see him in pain. He needs us, he need his other half.', I tried to convince my brother to go and have a brotherly talk with our cousin. But he still stares at the floor as if there was something unreadable there. 'He needs you', I love that supportive voice - always will. The voice that have been giving multiple of mental support to our leader. The voice that have assure our leader to treat his illness. The voice that had been keeping Hanbin hyung alive while we weren't been able to notice his pain, his sickness, his depression and him falling apart. I would like to thank him in every way I could. As Bobby hyung gather his strength to bring up his head, Jaewon hyung gives him an assuring smile. Jiwon shift his gaze at Jisoo noona who is now squishing her boyfriend's hand tightly to give his her spiritual strength.  'After Jennie's out', he just simply said but then everyone's focus was now at Hanbin hyung's room. Someone's shouting, 'Believe me! I can't lose you anymore! Not now...mot ever...', the words give my whole body shivers. I don't understand why she was shouting abt losing him but it really scares me. I can't lose him either. I just can't. He didn't mean the world to me but at some point, my life wouldn't be the same anymore if I tend to lose him. No, not him too. I can't lose anybody else after mom. I started to grow impatient but then suddenly I saw Jisoo squishs Bobby hyung's hand tighter to make him stay at his sit. The others panic as well, but not Jaewon. Nope he didn't. It was like his daily routine to hear something like that. How I forgot he had been dealing with Hanbin's cluelessness and sanity these 2 years.

After the scream everything went silent-, trust me when it comes to the silent moment none of us were calm except for Jaewon hyung. Bobby hyung was tapping his left foot with jisoo noona kept on squishing his hand, Jinan hyung played with his hands none stop, DK kept on touching his earrings, Yoyo hyung patted on chanu's back and I was well I was staring or more like observing the whole situation. A couple of minutes passed by didn't seem to hear any sound from them, Jaewon hyung took action. He got up from his place and went to check on them, * knock knock * 'is everything okayy in there ?', we didn't get a quick answer after that but then Jennie noona came out from his room. Her eyes was puffy - seems like she's been crying in there. Well that made us more nervous. 'I just need to have a drink', that sad expression-, that all of us could saw it. Jisoo noona accompanied her to the kitchen to calm Jennie noona down. Jaewon get back to his sit with a slight silence filled in the air, he broke it anyway. 'Bobs~ It's your turn now~', I saw it. Bobby's nerve. He can't seem to get himself to gather his courage to go and talk to our cousin. Jaewon hyung on the other hand, 'Please be patience~ He's not in his best state~ Please at least try to understand him~ He needs you~', his words got my cold heart break to pieces  - picturing all the that our leader have been through, all the sacrifice he did for our group, his family. It broke my heart when I realize someone who he just met 3 years ago can be so close - so understanding, meanwhile us-, his teammates that have been with his for the last 6 years and longer for bobby hyung - couldn't even get ourselves to be beside him when he's in need. With that Bobby hyung make his way towards Hanbin hyung's room