Confused Love (A Jaden and Eily Story)

38.

Jaden Pov
Few Minutes Later, Currently 7:17pm

I unlocked the door and seen it was dark . Hopefully she was sleep.
I walked by the dining room and seen my mom sitting like this ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️

Oh lord 😅

Mom: Where were you?
Me: At the beach..
Mom: Why were you at the beach??
Me: It calms me down 😁
Mom: If you went to the beach, why do you have bruises and bandages all over yourself??
Me: Because I ran into a tree, I meant, I ran into a pole then fell down some steps, then a random cat came scratching me.
Mom: Boy......😑😑
Me: Ok, I got in a fight with Malak. He kinda played me and Eily.
Mom: Jaden?! 😧
Me: What? He freaking stole my girl in a wrong way. He shouldn't have done that. I had to beat his ass, you know, handle business.
Mom: Jaden, I'm getting tired of this behavior!! You're always angry or sad, when nothing or nobody has been messing with you! I mean , what's the issue here??!!
Me: Nothing....

I wanted to say some of my "words" to her, but I really didn't wanna be disrespectful to her. She needs to stop.

Mom: I mean it has to be an issue somewhere... You coming home late-
Me: You know sometimes, you can be the problem....

I ain't even mean to say that 😂 It just slid out my mouth, I was thinking outloud sort off💀. I guess I'm gonna have to keep it rolling.

My Mom slammed her hands on the table and looked at me angrily. What is that gonna accomplish😂?? You know what, I'm just gonna hush. This is why I'm always smiling when I get in trouble 💀 I can't never keep my shit together in my head💀

Mom: What do you mean, I'm the problem?!!! Jaden, I do nothing to you!
Me: Yes you are! You always arguing at me for no reason! As soon as I come in the house, all I hear is you yelling at me for no reason. Like, for what reason??!!
Mom: First of all, your grades look terrible. You have a B, C, two Ds and a F. Second, you are always having an attitude.
Me: First off, That F is a 59.9, which rounds to a 60, so I'm passing right now, chill. Second, why are you arguing at me like we a married couple?? Hold up, matter a fact, you don't even act like my brother and yo husband was in the family. It's like you forgot all about them-
Mom: FORGET THEM JADEN!!

This woman 😧😦😵-

Me: Mom, it's like you not even my mom anymore....
Mom: Well maybe I'm not now 😑

Well then 😢

Me: Forget you!

I felt all that depression creeping up on me again.

Mom: Forget you too Jaden. Maybe you were a disappointment..
Me: What-😟

I hurried off to my room. I couldn't talk to her anymore, she kept putting me down every time she said something.
I sat on my bed and looked down.
All these thoughts started crashing my head...

You are a burden to others

Kill yourself

You have no purpose

You're unimportant

Hurt Yourself

I got up, went to the kitchen, got a small knife, and went back to my room. I sat back down on my bed.

All these emotions and thoughts in my head.....I just can't cope with it anymore.

I just started scratching my arm with the knife. As much as I whine about getting hurt, I didn't whine about doing this. It actually kinda helps cope with these emotions. It puts my mind on something else.

I had cut myself for about 8 times, then I stopped. Blood was dripping slowly from my arm.

What am I gonna do with my life? I just can't do it anymore.

Eily Pov

I was sitting in the living room on my phone, the t.v was playing something from netflix.

All of a sudden, I heard the front door unlocking, and then seen Lexus come in.

Lexus: Heyyy Bestfriend
Me: How was practice?
Lexus: We ain't really do nothing forreal, but, I have some tea for you 🙂
Me: I got tea too girl, sit down 😂

She sat down beside me.

Me: So Malak and Jaden fought over here.
Lexus: What 😦? Wait hold up, why was Jaden even over here??
Me: Well it turns out Malu gave him some medicine, but he didn't know what it actually was at first. That medicine made him act the way he acted. So, Malu actually wanted Jaden for herself, and Malak knew about it, but he wanted to be with me at the same timeeee. Jaden came to apologize to me, then Malak came over and fought Jaden, Malak ran away and said he'll be back for Jaden later...
Lexus: What ???😦😦😦
Me: Yuppp
Lexus: Damn, so much stuff has happened during the course of time 😂
Me: I know 😂
Lexus: Well, I gotta tell you my stuff..
Me: What is it?
Lexus: I got a boyfriend-😄
Me: Wahhhhh? What he look like 👀
Lexus: Dang, give me time to talk 😂 Well, I'll show you a picture real quick

She scrolled through her phone and showed me a picture.

Me: Damnnnn Lexus 😍- Let me stop this. I shouldn't be doing this 😂
Lexus: You know he fine, don't even lie 😂
Me: He aighttttt
Lexus: Mmmmhmmmm...😏😂
Me: I'm forreal😂. But is this dude in like college?
Lexus: His name is Larenzo , and he goes to our school.
Me: Forreal??? I never see him around.
Lexus: Yeah....He's a freshman....
Me: A WHAT??? 😂😂
Lexus: I'm just playing, he a junior 😂, chill out 😂. I wouldn't downgrade to a freshman, but if he looked like this as a freshman, you can forget about what I said 😂😂.
Me: You had me thinking I was tripping 😂. If he really was a freshman, I would've thought he flunked about 3 times 💀.
Lexus: Stop it 😂. Anyways, I had to tell you just in case you wondered who he was.
Me: Ahhh must be niceee
Lexus : Don't be "must be nice" ing me 😂. You got a whole snack on the side waiting for you to come back to him😂
Me: Shut up 😂. I'll talk to him tomorrow at school . I kinda miss him to be honest

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