It's A Brother Thing

Chapter 21: One Minus

A/n So I went back and reread some of my book and it kinda sucks. Haha, I can write so much better ughhh. But this was honestly just for my sister, and now it's at 230 views, so???? Also, sorry for the sad chapters, but it's for the sake of the story! Read on! 💓
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He wouldn't accept my phone call.

I dialed, sobbing on the bathroom floor. No answer.

I dialed. It rang. No answer.

I dialed. It rang. No answer.

I dialed. It rang. No answer.

I threw my phone, screaming into my knees as it cracked loudly against the side of the tub. I didn't care.

Jakob was gone.

He left. He abandoned me and I'm not sure why. What did I do wrong? He...he couldn't know about Aaron, or he wouldn't be mad at me. This couldn't all just be because I was gone for a long time either.

He just doesn't want me anymore. He's not in love...

Maybe he finally realized that I'm just a stupid, little child. He realized I'm not what he wants. What he needs. How much better he could do.

I ripped at my hair, not caring as I started to see red in my vision. Jakob left and everything that mattered went with him.

Including my will to be alive. Without Jakob, I am more worthless than gum stuck to the bottom of an old shoe. I'm just a play thing for Aaron. An outlet. A failure. Tainted. Gross.

This life is not for me. All I've known is harm and all I've learned is that my body and my looks determine how people treat me. I was kidnapped once at ten, again at 15, and throughout all of that, Aaron has been...t-touching me.

The only one who loved me for me. The only one who cared about me, doesn't anymore. So I'm nothing. This life is nothing.

Without Jakob, I'm lost and scared and confused. He's all I've known. For 16 years, he's the one I've gone to for everything.

If I fell down and scraped my knee, I didn't want mommy and daddy. I wanted Jake. If I was having a bad dream, I slept with Jake. When I was nervous or worried, Jake made it go away. If Jake went somewhere, I had to go too. If Jake ate his vegetables, I ate mine too.

I'd cross the ocean for him. I'd sell my soul. And I'd keep dealing with Aaron.

I glance at the pair of scissors I carried in...

But if Jakob is done with me. If he hates me now...then there is no reason for me to be alive. I'll just be used. I'll just be hurt. I'll just be discarded.

Again and again and again. Just like always.

I sob, shaking as I find the sharp pair of scissors in my hand...and then staring down at myself in shock when I find them plunged deep in my stomach.

"O-Oh my god."
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Jake's POV
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I try to find a drop of emotion in my body, but everything went numb after a while. Kyle lets me think, the only sound between us is the soft music from the radio.

It doesn't last long. "Jakob."

"What." I mumble quietly. My attention is focused on the beauty of the nature surrounding us. Kyle took us on drive through the canyon and even though it's a pretty big waste of gas, it's exactly what I need.

"I'm going to ask you again. What's going on between you and Simon? Please be honest."

I stare at my hands, feeling my heart twist sharply behind my rib cage at the mention of his name. God, that was painful. At least I know what evokes emotion in me...