It's A Brother Thing

Chapter 27: Footage

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Oops, Sorry. Forgot this wasn't YouTube. I guess I just got confused since all I do is spend my time on there. Frik that! 😂😂 SO GOOD NEWS. I FREAKING GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL. I know. You're all very proud of me. 😌😌 Anyways, someone commented on my book who WASN'T my sister so I was like, wow I guess I'll keep writing it since someone cares. Enjoy this latest development. 😏😏

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Jake and I stumble as I walk backwards, hugging onto his strong body. I don't want to let go until the last second because he's the only thing that makes me feel okay. I know he's about to leave me so I'm getting in as much contact as possible.

"You'll be safe, I promise." Jake whispers as we get close to the auditorium doors. "I'll be waiting for you in the library. If you need me, text me or come find me."

I nod, but only because I'm supposed to. Only because I need to show Jake that he's not dating a scared, little child. I need to show him that I won't have a mental breakdown every time we separate. Even though it certainly feels that way.

Taking away Jake is liking taking away meds from a sick patient. I know it's pathetic, but I depend on him. I need him or else I start to get flashbacks of what Aaron did to me. I start to feel his creeping hands all over, and my lungs shrink.

Jake does his best to help me through it. He sat down with me the other night and did research on sexual abuse, holding my hand and wiping away my tears the entire time. He said it's important for me to understand my feelings and know what to expect after the trauma I've been through. What we found is that my body is reacting to all of the harm and danger now that it's safe from it. It also explained why my brain shut down each time I was assaulted. It was to protect me.

And now my body is making up for all those times by experiencing flashbacks and terror and constant anxiety that Aaron is going to pop up and hurt me. The worst part is, is that it's only a matter of time before he locates me and the abuse starts up again. It's inevitable. Aaron is crazed and he's obsessed with me. All things I've been keeping from Jake.

He already worried enough about me before. He even had a tracker installed in my old phone so he could find me at all times. Until I smashed it against the tub...

Since this whole mess unraveled, he's only been more on edge about my safety. He tells me how guilty he feels almost everyday for not knowing what was happening to me.

Which makes me feel horrible for hiding it.

Jake couldn't have possibly known that I was being abused. I did everything in my power to keep it from him. I almost gave up our relationship by trying to say I cheated, just to protect him from all of this. If that doesn't show how determined I was to keep him safe, then I don't know what will.

I love him more than I love to breathe. I love him more than I have ever loved anything. He's the one I'm going to spend the rest of my life with if I can help it.

We just gotta make it through these downs...

"I'll be fine." I finally whisper, trying to smile assuringly. Jake nods, trying to believe it.

"I know you will," he glances away with a sigh, reluctantly letting his arms fall from my waist. Looks like I'm not the only one who's struggling to separate.

As he turns away and starts walking down the hall, I feel my heart clench. It pounds with fear, my lungs start shrinking again. I blink several times, trying to clear away the sudden fog in my eyes.

"J-Jake wait! Wait! Wait!" I sputter out in a panic, pressing my back against the door so I know no one can sneak up behind me. I close my eyes and take several deep breaths.