Aki how is this going to work? Hikaru doesn't even like you. Not that he's explicitly said it. But I know he doesn't. When ever I talk about Aki or even mention his name Hikaru's face turns around.
I should have said something about this at the cafe. Not contemplating it in my bed. I guess I was just too excited to see him again. I was completely and utterly blindsided. Why does Aki do those things to me? I mean, I don't hate him. I don't really know how I feel about him.
Him. Interesting isn't it? I didn't even think about guys, girls, or sex. Not before Aki. I feel like that's all he wanted at first. He helped me, then kissed me. I don't even know how to explain to Grandmother that I'm gay. That's the first time I admitted that to myself.
I'm gay.
I'm gay.
I really am gay.
I like guys.
I let them kiss and touch me.
I'm too scared to tell anyone that doesn't already know I'm gay.
Grandmother doesn't know I'm gay. How do I tell her I'm gay. I can't tell her I'm gay! She wanted grandchildren! Well, great grandchildren. It'll kill her! I have to tell her soon. Maybe on my birthday I could tell her.
No not then. She's been hinting at a present my parents had for me. I also made her promise that she'd tell me what happened to them. They wouldn't abandon me. It must have been some sort of accident.
After all this time I still don't know what they look like. When I ask for a picture she gets sad. She disappears for a while then comes back like nothing happened. Grandmother will tell me in due time.
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