If This Works

21

I sat at the kitchen table waiting for the toast to be done. I just let Aki sleep for the night, I slept on the couch. I saw no point in waking him up last night. I wanted to look though most of his things but I pushed that thought out of respect for his privacy.

I heard him get out of bed. I was expecting him to come into the kitchen with me, but he went to the bathroom. I walked to the bathroom. He was taking mouth wash from the cabinet. I didn't want to watch so I went back to the kitchen.

Grandmother told me that people only drink to get away from their past, to forget memories that are too painful to have. This is the second time I've seen Aki this way. He must not be telling me something bad that happened to him.

I did the best I could to make breakfast. He doesn't have much food in his kitchen. All he had was bread, cereal, milk, and honey. I spread honey on the bread. I sat there and sort of just wanted for him. When he came from the bathroom he looked like crap.

"You made this?" He asked.

I could tell he was in no mood to talk about last night. What he said, what he did.

"Yeah I did. You need to go grocery shopping. You don't have any food. I did the best I could with what I had." I explained.

"I ment to do that a while ago. I'll go later today. Why don't you come with me?" Aki asked.

"Really? You want me to go to the grocery shop with you." I said confused.

"Why not? Your going to be spending time over here again so might as well get what you like to eat." He said.

"Actually I think that I'll be spending all my spare time over here. Hikaru got mad and stormed out the other day."

"I can't imagine you in an argument. Your too cute, and soft spoken." He said.

"It was less of an agreement and more of heated discussion." I said.

"Still. I uhh......I really missed this. Hanging out with you." He said. "I'm gonna take a shower now. You can stay or let yourself out."

He got up and started off to the bathroom again. I couldn't let him get off that easy. I still wanted to know if he ment what he said last night. Or even if he ment to say it.

"Wait....last night you said-"

"Whatever I said, I ment. Just do me a favor and don't tell me what I said." He said.

I looked down to hide my smile. I didn't want him to see it. He loves me. Now I have to find the time to tell him the same thing. On top of finding the appropriate time to tell Grandmother that I'm gay. About that.......I could just not tell her.

I headed for home as Aki got the shower running. I could hear the water. I really wanted to take a peak at him. I was able to stop myself and go home. Grandmother will be waiting. She's always wondering what I do when I'm with Aki all night.