i think ill die obsessed ; gawsten

8. rare

geoffs pov

the job of getting awsten back to his more happy, bubbly, joking self is becoming hard again. just if we didnt go to that stupid resutraunt. it was my idea to go and i had no clue she worked there. a part of me is obviously bringing myself down for disappointing awsten.

i just wish i didnt get so, physical, when i was knocking some sense into ciara. im not the one for violence but if its for awsten, ill throw some hands. i can already tell theres, most likely, been videos recorded of me yelling at her. ive avoided that.

flashback.

why the fuck did awsten get up so suddenly? he was seeming decent, i mean he was very smiley and happy. i look over to where he is and i see her. ciara. i dont even hesitate to slip out a few curse words. my first action was to grab awsten. as i get closer, i can see hes already in a panic attack. i can see how pale he is and how he cant even blink.

i grab his thigh to launch him into my arms and give ciara a quick glance of 'ill be back' and ran out to the bus. i set him down and gave him a quick kiss on his forehead and go back outside. as i make my ways to the doors, otto grabs my shoulder.

"dont you fucking dare go back in there," he says in an strict tone. i shake my head and scoff. cant he see that she was in there, obviously bringing awsten down from his high happiness? i try to push through him, but he grabs me again and yells, "dont you fucking dare going back into there to attack her. itll make awsten worse  geoff. for fucks sake!" i laugh, obviously not listening to otto.

i look back at the bus and being able to see awstens poor body shake. if i could run back on there and place kisses onto his body and whisper sweet things in his ear, i would. i just have to do one thing before i do. that is to say a few words to ciara. i give otto one last look and he shakes his head. "he would much rather you comfort him right now." otto says.

i walk into rasturnant, not seeing ciara. i ask someone for her and they bring her over. i lead her outside so i wont cause a too big of a scene. she gives me a smug look but tries to seem clueless. "oh for fucks sake, get that whole smug look off your face," i say disgustingly.

she shrugs her shoulders, going to speak. "look, geoff. i dont know what i did wrong. please, if you dont mind, explain what i did to your poor boy awsten." i cant tell if shes being sarcastic or not, but i really can explain to her what she did wrong.

"well, first off. your 'caring ass' cheated on him. second off, you did have the guts to sit down with him to explain what you did and why you did it. third off, youre being a complete dick to him by threatening him and scaring the shit outta him. theres many more, but ill end it on this one. just leave him the fuck alone so he can get happy again," i say, not taking my eyes off of hers.

she laughs, obviously not caring what im saying. "geoff, buddy. first off, his oblivious ass stayed with me. he knew this would end up happening. plus, he never replied to the texts, so whats the point in not having a little bit of fun? its quiet funny bringing him down, honestly," she says, laughing up a storm.

by this point, ive lost my patience. i slam her into the wall and begin to yell. "you think its funny, hm? you should fucking see him on the bus. he doesnt even speak to us at all anymore. hell, hes not even happy on stage. he denies hes not happy on stage, but i see right through him cause its obvious his hurting. all thanks to you!" i pause as she trys to escape my force on her. me, not thinking, pushes her stomach back on the wall. "dont even try. you need to fucking comprehend you broke the living hell out of awsten. he was planning to marry you, yahknow? he wanted to have kids with you, too. he wanted to spend his whole life, with you. all because you made him feel so at home and so safe and so happy. but no, no you had to go and fucking ruin that for him. he doesnt even let himself feel anymore. its starting to get really difficult to build him back together. im fucking done with your bullshit, ciara. leave awsten, the fuck, alone," i yell, not thinking again and end up punching her straight up in the jaw. she groans, but laughs.