i think ill die obsessed ; gawsten

2. veins! veins!! veins!!

-awstens pov

i got back from my walk just in time for our bus to be leaving. i would have walked a bit longer, but my phone died a little while ago. it was a nice walk, i must say.

i was instantly greeted with a geoff hug, making me startled a bit. "what the fuck are you doing, gee?" i ask, pulling away after a few mintues of this random hug he gave me.

"i was worried, aws. you werent answering your phone and we couldn't find you anywhere. where did you go, anyways?" he rushes his words out as he speaks, making it a bit hard to scramble them together due to me not sleeping for a while.

i walk over to sit on the couch and plug my phone up as i shake my phone in front of my face to show geoff it had died. "went dead a while ago. im fine though, just tired," i say, undoing my shoe laces and kicking them off. "god, what can i do to get some nice sleep around here?" i blurt out, grabbing the nearest blanket.

i hear everyone on the bus laugh, but i hear a sigh from geoff. i open my eyes, looking at geoff keeping an eye on me. i give him a slight confused look and he pulls me close to him. "just be in my arms and fall asleep, boo boo. thatll help," geoff jokingly says, making us both laugh.

and thats what i do. i stay in geoffs arms and swing my legs across his lap and get a bit more comfortable. when i was almost asleep, i hear a quiet sleep well, aws.

-later that afternoon

i cant believe all my dreams have been the same thing over and over. just diffrent scenarios. those dreams being involved with her breaking my heart again and again.

todays dream was me going over to her house to surprise her for some cheesy reason i cant remember. all i can remember is me walking into the kitchen, seeing something i didnt want to see.

"awsten, wake up. dude, i swear to god youre never this hard to wake up. we have sound check in twenty mintues. ill buy you some heb if you wake up in three, twooo."

thats what i hear from geoff when i wake up. i shoot my head up and rub my eyes as i strech a bit. "fine, fine, fine. im awake. you better buy me that heb," i softly say as i slowly get up and go to where all of our clothes are.

i wont let that dream bother me. i wont.

i slide on a random muscle tee and a random pair of dark jeans and the same pair of boots i always wear. i walk out to where geoff and otto are and wrap my arms around them. "lets get this rehearsal started and then go get some heb," i say, scrunching my face in front of geoffs.

as rehearsal went on, i decided to go onto twitter. i go through my timeline, seeing a tweet of her and her boyfriend she cheated on me with. i was going to reply with something shady, but i dont want to do it that way. so, i start typing a new tweet that will most likely get everyone shooken up.

@awsten
IF YOU WANT TO POST ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP, BLOCK ME FROM SEEING IT. I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR ICKY GROSS NEW BOYFRINED IN MY FEED. ESPECIALLY AFTER WHAT YOUVE DONE TO ME. GET OUT OF HERE, GOD.

and just what i thought, people started to ask what was wrong. my head was debating over if i should reply to some people or just delete the tweet or even just add onto the rant. ill go with the first.

@theboysaresad
who's this shade to now?

@awsten
relying to @theboysaresad
SOMEONE WHO SHOULD OBVIOUSLY OWN UP TO WHAT THEY DID IN PERSON AND NOT JUST TEXT ME ABOUT WHAT THEY DID, LEAVING ME IN THE DARK.

i already get fed up, running to the bathroom. i hear a few people yell for me, but i just simply ignore it. i needed away from everyone.

i decided what was best and deleted the tweets. even after that, i saw many people mention me. asking what was wrong and all of that. a few connecting the dots that her and i ended.