i think ill die obsessed ; gawsten

9. crave

fuck it. awsten, will you take the honor to be my boyfriend?

that question makes my heart feel ten times heavier. thats when it clicks in, he wrote that song about me, then asked me out. i dont even know how i can answer the question, hell i dont know if i can answer it. how long was he planning this and how long has he felt like this about me? i will admit, i always have had the slightest eye for geoff. its the way he does things that make my heart flutter.

i start to focus on how geoff looks right now. he looks anxious, like the one question depended on him for his life and if i say something wrong he will shatter. his eyes are a different shade of blue. i dont know how to explain it, but its a mixture of his normal blue with a few gray shades. theyre lighter than usual, if you say so. his eyebrows are lifted up slightly, they look to be that way in concern and curiosity. his mouth is open slightly with a small smile, its more of a smirk. his eye switch to look at my eyes and lips, something hes done a lot in the time ive known him. his hands are laying on my waist and holding me up since im in his lap.

then i think and look away from geoff. im not sure if i want to say yes or not, right now. a part of me is telling me to say yes, but in a special and in an extra way. i bring my hands to my face and take a deep sigh before looking back up at geoff and laying my hands on my lap again. "can i think about it for a bit?" i softly ask, hoping thats fine with him.

he nods his head and starts to push my hair back since it was slighly messy. "of course, not pressure. have all the time you need, aw," he says, letting a small smile fall onto his face. i nod my head and smile as well. i was about to go in to hug him, but geoffs phone goes off. of course. he goes to reach for it, "it's otto." he picks up and of course we have sound check for our show tonight.

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sound check so far has gone smoothly. im in a good mood for once. part of that might be due to geoff, but i came up with an idea. stay tuned, fellas. as of now, were practicing on playing stupid for you. that song always makes my stomach turn. i never really knew who i wrote that about, but now i do. i smile as i sing and dance around. i keep stealing glances at geoff to see him smiling at me.

that damn smile. that damn smile. no matter how hard he tries or doenst try, that one thing about him will never fail to make my stomach to flips.

soon, we finish with sound check and i skip over to geoff. i jump on his back and thank god he catches me. "hey there," i whisper, laughing softly. geoff looks back and smiles. i lay my chin on his shoulder, coming up with an idea. i smirk, tilting my head to place soft kisses on his neck. keep in mind, geoff is walking like any normal human being. theres just a person on him who so happens to be pressing soft kisses onto his neck.

his grip on my thighs begin to tighten slighly. i bring my hand to the opposite side on his neck, barely touching his adams apple. his breath starts to hitch and get messy just a bit and dear god, isnt it attractive. "awsten, we have a show tonight," he whispers, adjusting me on his back so i wont slip out of his arms.

i laugh softly, but lowly with a smirk. "and ive got something for you tonight, gee," i suggestively say causing geoff to dart to the room next to us. he drops me onto the floor and brings me to the wall, getting close. he leans in for a kiss, but i lay my hand onto his chest. "eh eh, what happened to us having a show tonight, pretty boy?" i ask, making geoffs cheeks turn a shade of pink. i get up next to geoffs ear, whispering, "plus, dont you wanna save this for later?" i place a few more kisses onto his neck, but make sure one leaves a noticeable mark.