Secret love (boyxboyxboy)

The end?

~Sebastian P.O.V~

Its been 3 months, since my brothers left and I have been through some change. I dyed my hair a dark purple, I only wear dark clothes and I have closed myself off from the world, I only listen to dark music. I still dance my dad wouldnt let me quit...eventho I begged him to let me. We never talk about Oli or Lloyd and, If we do we have to use there proper names not nicknames. I miss them so much. I got myself a boyfriend called Liam but, hes too demanding and hates anyone who gets too close to me, no matter what the gender, so I lost my best friend Ffion. I have nearly killed myself twice but something inside stopped me. My dad locked Oli's and Lloyd's rooms, so me and my sister cant go in them, It still hurts him, well hurts him to loose Lloyd, he never liked Oli.

I was in my room pacing up and down, looking at my knife, thinking about it...I picked it up and held it near my chest but, just like before something stopped me...I really really miss them soooo much I would do anything to see them and I mean anything.

I went to school alone now, as Ffion is not allowed near me, I really want to end this relationship with Liam...but he will turn nasty.....so im stuck.

"Hey Eli!" Liam said, jumping on my back.
"....."
" whats wrong..? "
"Whats wrong....Whats wrong!!!! You have made me loose all my friends, because your scared, they will take me away from you!!! Well I have had just about enough of your fucking lies! Saying you love me, yeah right..." With that I just left him, the look on his face was a picture. 

One thing tho was he started chasing me. I was faster tho, I ran to my class and he couldn't get me, I smirked at him but I knew he would just get me at lunch. The whole day I spent hiding from him.

When I got home I went straight to my room and, did my homework whilst listening to my rubbish playlist. I was doing maths when my pen decided to burst all over my school shirt and jumper, my dad was gonna kill me. I quickly took it off and went to my bathroom, I put them in the sink forgetting don't mix dark's and whites, I went downstairs and made sure my dad wasn't around, got some washing powder and went back to my bathroom to soak my clothes. 

A few hours later I went back and I took my shirt out....It was pink, I knew I had to tell my dad so I went to find him.

"Dad!?"  

"In the garden!"

I went out and showed him my shirt and jumper, he just shook his head.

"Why didnt you tell me Eli"

"I was scared you were gonna yell at me.."

"No but now, you have no school shirt for tomorrow, look at it"

"I...I could always use Lloyd's old one..?"

He glared at me, knowing that I shouldn't of said it. He took me back inside and sent me up to my room. I am fed up with this...so fed up...I grabbed my knife and threw it through the window. Then I stood there and allowed myself to fall.