Dating Chris Evans one shots and imagines

Tears

Warnings none, just strong upset feelings and hurt, maybe a few triggers based on a real experience
Characters Pov

You and Chris had met on a chat site and had been talking for months, you guys knew there was a connection there from the first time you started talking, you were single and so was he, it would put a smile on your face when he would text you early in the morning, as it was the time difference. Everything was going amazing well up until yesterday. He was missing you and so he looked you up on your Facebook profile and seen a few things that shocked him and you forgot you had on there.

The first thing he saw that really hit him hard was the picture of an engagement ring on your finger, it hurt him, so while you were at work he left you a couple of texts, saying he looked you up, and about the ring on your finger. Once you had finished your shift at work you checked your phone, and seen the messages. You explained to him about the picture that it was to stop random gross guys from sending you some pretty naughty gross pictures of them, to say that you weren't upset that he immediately thought you were engaged without asking you hurt, but you understood where he was coming from, he only sent you two more texts after that, then he shut off.

You could feel the tears running down your cheeks as you could feel the pain and upset from him and you. (You've had your gift for years being able to sense the one you loved's emotions). You sent him one last message saying "I'm sensing your upset with me and I'm sorry"..

The next morning you seen his 2 texts explaining that he was thrown and he couldn't get some of the things out of his head, more tears wanted to escape your eyes, you replied to the message that you were sorry, and if he wanted conformation that it was along time ago, to look at the dates. You also told him that if he wanted to know anything you would tell him, due to the fact you're very open and honest, the very last thing you said was just remember I always love you.

You left it at that, you wanted to cry so badly because you unintentionally may have screwed things up in a relationship once again, you see your past relationships had taken a long toll on you, all the abuse and manipulation that you had faced over 8 years ago caught up with you again, you thought to yourself "how can I have just a small bit of hope with a man I really have fallen hard for and love so bad? I'm such a bad person I don't deserve him, and he most likely won't want me now, so I should just give up".
What you suffered in your past was horrendous for someone so young, being 25, you had imagined your life so much more different, not struggling to pay off a debt your ex left you with, looking at your emotional scars from all your past relationships and when you finally thought you found "the one", you messed up. So you decided to put on the saddest music you had and started to plan to run again in your head as your tears just kept coming.

You knew you had done everything that you could, but the rest was up to him, and you knew you may not hear from him again but you slowly had to accept it, the hardest thing was him being in New York and you being in Australia. It's amazing how you felt so attached to each other, but then again it was your fault that this happened and you had no one to blame but yourself. You wished he would come after you, just turn up on your doorstep, just like that song from maroon 5 she will be loved, but sadly that wasn't the case, and you knew it, the girl that you had shown him was the real you, it always was, you just had this dark past that you were running from that always ruined you as soon as you found happiness. You were contemplating going back to your old ways that helped you deal with your past before, that you had worked so hard to stop, you see with all you suffered you gave yourself an eating disorder and started cutting yourself to deal with it all, your family were always there to help you through it. As you sat down on your bed, your body was shaking, you thought you can't just throw everything away you loved him more then words can describe, you hoped he was alright, even though you felt all of the emotions from yourself and him, you knew better.... "I guess all that's needed is to hope he reads his messages and hopefully reads the story I've written." You then got ready for work.

To be continued as soon as I have an ending....