The Heart Determines

Chapter 10 - The Talk [Part 2]

AUTHOR'S NOTE: THIS CHAPTER WILL BE A LITTLE BIT LONGER! YAY! LOL HOPE YOU ENJOY! AND IM SAD TO SAY THAT THIS BOOK WILL COME TO AN END SOON. :( BUT THERE WILL BE SOME CHAPTERS LEFT! THANK YOU FOR THE ONES WHO VOTED AND FANNED! PLZ IF U LIKE MY STUFF COMMENT, VOTE, AND FAN! THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME 600 READS!!! LUV YOU ALL!! <3~

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Previously from Chapter 9 The Talk [Part 1].............

"Kevin.....when we were young, best friends, and teenagers........did you.......have any.......feelings for me?"

Sabrina, you've done it.

I closed my eyes tightly, feeling scared and worried what he was going to say or respond to me. But when I slowly opened them, I saw him not smiling? He wasn't smiling, but didn't frown either. So, I guess you can say he wore a somewhat 'straight face', a little emotionless, but still straight.

"Kev? You all right?...If the question really bothers you.....you don't have to answer it......."

He scratched the back of his head and looked down....

Can this be true?! Did he really have feelings for me?! Or is he thinking of a way to express his answer in a way that won't hurt or offend me? -Sigh- Wow Sabrina. You've really done it. Why did you have to pressure him? Does this really matter to you? 

HERE WE GO AGAIN.  -___-

You know what? It does matter to me. He was my childhood friend. MY BEST FRIEND. I DESERVE TO KNOW!!!! YOU CAN'T STOP ME!!!!! BWHAHAHAHAHA!!

This is awkward.....its confusing when both negative and positive parts collide and start arguing. You know what I mean? It's like you're parents fighting non-stop about the bills. lol

"Sabrina... let's talk about this on that bench."

We headed toward an ordinary bench. Brown, kind of old, but yet... a bench. When we sat down, I looked into his eyes. He looked upset, devasted, and tired. I felt awful seeing him like this. I guess my negative side was right. It is my fault. 

Then, just when I was about to apologize he spoke. "Ever since the 1st grade, I never laid eyes on another girl. You were always so kind to others, helpful to teachers, and not to mention one heck of a cutie," he chuckled.

"I decided why not introduce myself? We could be best friends! And I actually pulled it off! I was so proud of myself. I made friends with my crush! And ever since, I always stood by you, we always had each others back. I thought nothing could stand in our friendship. However,.... I was wrong. Something did get into our friendship. But I'm not blaming you, Sabrina. James couldn't help himself. You were such a kind person, everyone loved you. And so was James: kind, popular, strong, intelligent, good-lookin', the whole package. I can't compete with him."

[START PLAYING FORBIDDEN ACT! XD or not.......]

I started crying, hiding my face with my now, wet hands. I can't believe I betrayed Kevin! I feel so awful! Go ahead negative side, pour all the unpleasant thoughts onto me! I deserve it!

I continue crying, but a warm hand patted me on the back and hugged me.

"Oh Kevin! I'm so sorry!! I never knew you felt that way about me! I must be the worst best friend ever! I'm such a bitch!!" I cried as I held on tighter.

"You're not a bitch Sabrina. You're so much more! You're the best person I know." And that just made me hold onto him even tighter.

"Don't cry Sabrina. Don't cry. It's just the past."

"Kevin! The past does matter! It reflects on what's going to happen in the future! Are you saying that our past didn't matter?! We had it all! WE WERE BEST FRIENDS!!!! WE WERE---"

And just as I was cut off, Kevin pressed his lips onto mine.

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