Complicated| Z.K

Chapter 25

Jordyn's P.O.V

I stared at the boy standing in between my door frames. Do I want to talk to him or do I want to forget about him? It's hard forgetting about someone who means so much to you. Would I fully forget him or just forget the bad parts? I need closure.

I move myself to the side and motion for Zion to come in. He does so and sits on one of my bar stools. I move and rest my hands on the counter in front of him,  I'm now standing across from him.

"Look, Jordyn, I'm sorry," Zion says, I roll my eyes. 

" Like really sorry, I know sorry doesn't fix anything, I was going to tell you but I just couldn't bring myself to" He looks at me to see how I'm reacting. My face is dull, emotionless on the outside but on the inside, it's a tornado.

" I should have told you but I was scared of the way you would react since I know you two don't get along," Zion says waiting for me to say something

" You don't have to apologize, it's not like we were really together," I say truthfully, I really had no place to be mad. Zion's head goes down, I'm assuming guilt? " You and Jessica would be cute, I just wished you told me you liked her so I could have avoided feeling played, and why didn't you just ask Jessica to be your fake girlfriend," I say letting some of my feelings out

" Jessica and I aren't even together, I wanted to ask someones who I had a connection with and I swear we used protection, I'm making her get a DNA test," Zion says tears in his eyes

" That's smart. If you and Jessica aren't together then why did you mess around with her?" I ask

  " Because I didn't think the girl that I liked likes me back, but I really got fucked over, that baby can't be mine," Zion says tears now falling down his face. It hurts me to see him this way but he deserves it. I grab a tissue box and hand it to him, he wipes away his tears then looks at me  

" We aren't together it was a one-time thing, I really messed up, I don't even like her," Zion says, stopping at times to catch his breath to talk

" Zion, that's no way to get a girl, if you like someone you gotta tell them you can't mess around with another girl," I say, he looks at me 

" Jordyn, I like you," Zion says, I was shocked but couldn't deny the fact that I felt the same way. I didn't know what to say so I just stared at him

" I know I fucked up in every way possible but I want you to truly be mine," Zion says confessing his feeling for me

" Zion, you're sad and don't know what you are talking about," I say trying to bring some sense into this boy. You can't just break my heart then profess your love to me

" NO, I'm serious Jordyn, I was going to ask you out before Jessica came" Oh shit, I forgot about the question he was going to ask me, damn

" Look, Zion, I 'm not going to lie and say I don't feel the same way but you've already hurt me and we weren't even really dating," I say trying my best to end this conversation

" But you dated me for a couple of months so you would know how it would be," Zion says trying to convince me to be his

" Exactly, I don't want that in a relationship, one day you would be super nice then the next day you would cut me off, I don't need another Jay type of relationship," I say

" You can't come into my life and make me feel like a queen one day and the next day make me feel like shit, you can't come into my life and make me fall for you to only break my heart, you can't claim me but be out with other girls. I came out here to focus on my music and as much as you have helped the only things I have done out here is get my heart broken, get distracted and played. None of those were on my to-do list. Don't come into my life and fuck me over and expect me to forgive you so quick, I'm complicated, my life is complicated and you're not helping the situation. I truly don't want anything to do with you. Our 'relationship' is a business arrangement now and should have always been. I was going to stay out here in L.A because I wanted to be around you but right now I don't even want to see your face, you've made me relapse, I called Jay last night and we hung out, you made me feel so shitty that somehow being with Jay made me feel better. I really don't want to be with you or around you at the moment. You have a possible child to take care of and a baby mama, and if your way of showing someone that you like them is to mess with someone else you need help because I don't roll that way. Don't claim you have feelings for me when you been messing with other shordy's. Get your shit together Zion because I'm really not here to play no games." I say letting my feelings out, my tornado of emotions stop and turn into a funnel cloud. I am bawling my eyes out. Everything I said was true, I don't want to be with someone who does shit like that. Zion's staring at me with sadness in his eyes. He gets up and walks towards the door, I follow him.

" I'm sorry,"  is all Zion says before he walks out of my apartment, I wish he came back, I wish he kissed me because watching him walk down the hallway away from me hurts me more than Jay or anybody has ever.