Complicated| Z.K

Chapter 30

Jordyn's P.O.V

Zion came banging on the door trying to get in.

"Jordyn," He says through the door

"jordyn," he says in a quieter voice

" Just go away please," I say, Zion has already seen me cry but I don't want him thinking I'm a poor little-broken thing, I don't want his or anyone's sympathy

" Please Jordyn," He says, I stay quiet

" I know that that's Jay, I could never forget a face that would hurt you, no one know's who he is so don't worry," Zion says trying to reassure me which worked for a second until I realized that that means more questions to answer on who he is. This made me cry, harder, I don't want to have to explain how shitty my old life is to the people I want in my new life.

" Jordyn just let me in. please" He said the last part in a low voice, I could barely hear him but somehow I felt bad for him, I wiped my tears away and got up looked in the mirror and just shook my head. How do I just keep letting Jay do this to me, he hurts me so much and I always let him back in no matter how good my life is going. He's like a drug.  I force my mouth into a smile and walk over to the door, taking one last big breath I open it. I see Zion fall back a little bit since he was sitting against the door. I tried to hold it in but when Zion looked at me with the most concerning eyes ever I started to cry again, I started to fall to the ground but Zion caught me. I was now crying in Zion's arm which was the best possible thing I could possibly ask for. He made me feel safe, for those short minutes in his arm I completely forgot why I was even sad in the first place until he came around the corner. Jay and Jessica were walking hand in hand laughing and giggling. It made me sick, literally. All the thoughts came rushing back and so did my lunch. I got up quickly from Zion's embrace and ran to the toilet, I quickly lifted up the seat and emptied out the contents of my stomach. Zion rushed over to me and held my hair back. He started to rub my back while asking me if I was okay, I couldn't really answer at the moment, I was kinda busy.  When I lifted my head up from the toilet I flushed it and avoided eye contact with Zion and made my way to the sink. I didn't want him to see me like this but it is kind of too late. I washed my mouth out with water and then looked in the mirror. When I looked up I saw Zion standing behind me, I gave him a small smile, he smiled back then wrapped his arms around my waist. We stood there for a couple of minutes in silence. It was comforting, he made me happy and like I was safe and nothing in the world could get to me. In that short amount of time, I forgot that I just saw my abusive ex, cried my eyes out and threw up. 

" Hey," I said breaking the silence

" Hey, are you okay?" Zion asked me, I just nodded at him in the mirror

" Do you wanna go out and eat, get away from everyone?" Zion asked me reading my mind. That's all I wanted to do. I nodded my head again not wanting to talk, Zion smiled and removed his arms from my waist. Everything came rushing back I felt like I was going to puke again. Before I even could throw up Zion grabbed my hand and escorted me out of the bathroom. As soon as I walked into the living room everyone looked at me concerned, except for Jay, he was smirking at me. I guess Zion saw so he pulled me closer to him. Charlotte ran up to me and asked me if I was okay I just nodded, I wasn't trying to break down in front of everyone, especially not Jay. Jessica looked really concerned for me and mouthed and asked if I was okay, I nodded and gave her a faint smile. I don't think she knows who Jay is to me and all I can do is pray that he isn't doing everything that he did to me to her.

" Okay guys, umm Jordyn and I are going to go out to eat, we will be back later tonight" Zion announced to everyone while he grabbed my stuff and then grabbed the keys to his car. I hugged all the guys and girls (including Jessica) while avoiding eye contact with Jay. I then followed Zion outside to his car. 

We rode in silence, Zion tried to get me to talk but after seeing me almost cry two more times he got the memo that I didn't want to talk. We soon pulled up to a small diner. It was cute and there wasn't a lot of people there. It was the same one we went to when Zion got noticed. I smiled at Zion. He walked over to my side of the car and opened the door for me I got out and headed inside.

We got inside and we sat down at a booth. The waitress came over and started to flirt with Zion and I saw her unbutton her shirt, but at this point, I did not have enough energy to fight with her. Zion didn't flirt back which I respected.  Zion and I ordered our food, we just talked about everything except about Jay, I think he understood that when I'm ready to talk he'll be the first person I go to.

After eating our food we soon left the diner before it got too busy, we didn't want paparazzi showing up. We both got into the car and started jamming out.

"Got M's in the bank like Yes Indeed" I started to sing the chorus of Yes Indeed

" Cartier glasses I won't even peek at you" Zion sung out the next part

" Yellow Ferrari like Pikachu" We both yelled out.

We soon pulled up to my apartment, Zion parked and we both headed into the lobby. Jessica wasn't there, I'm going to assume that she is with Jay, not that I care. We made our way up to my apartment and when I got inside I went straight to my bathroom and changed and took off my makeup. When Zion saw me he smiled.

" How do you keep getting cuter and cuter?" Zion asked me, I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck

" I could ask you the same thing," I said while smiling, Zion pecked my lips and I smiled through the kiss. I pulled away and looked at him. 

" You spending the night?" I asked him

" I don't have any clothes," He said, I shook my head

" You can wear the clothes that you gave me," I said, he smiled

" Okay, can I take a shower?" He asked me, I nodded my head and walked away from him and towards my cabinet to grab a towel and cloth for him. 

" Everything else you need will be in the shower," I said to him while handing him the towel

" But you will be out here," He said while grabbing my arm

" Boi go take a shower," I said while laughing, he chuckled and got up

I walked over to my T.V and set up a movie for me and Zion to watch after, I took out some popcorn and got some drinks. 

When Zion walked out of the shower I was on my phone, he snatched it out of my hands and placed it in his pocket.

" That's no way to treat your guests," Zion said while pouting, I flipped him off and walked over to grab the drinks and make the popcorn. I look over to see Zion taking a picture of himself on my phone. He captions it and posts it to Snapchat. I laughed and walked over with everything in my hands and place it down on the table. I quickly pick up my phone from the table before Zion could stop me and then ran to get some blankets. I went back over to Zion and laid them down, we both got under them and Zion wrapped his arms around me. 

" So what are we watching?"  Zion asks me

"Spider-Man Homecoming" I state, Zion nods and I press play on the movie. 

I slowly dozed off with Zion by my side, feeling as if nothing could get to me, this is how  I want to spend my life.