Running Away (a Louis Tomlinson fanfic)

Chapter 13

I ran for a few minutes.  I just wanted to get away from there.  I pulled off my heels and held them in my hand as I sat on a bench a few blocks down.  I felt tears stream down my face as I thought about what just happened.  This night was supposed to be perfect.  I was so excited to just enjoy it with my friends and Louis, but this just completely ruined it.  I started to cry more, out of disappointment and humiliation.

"Alice, Alice?"  I heard the unmistakable voice of Louis echoing through the empty street.  Perfect.  I had just admitted my feelings for him to myself and to my best friends and my stomach started doing flips as he approached me.  I was just so terrified of what I felt.  Last time I felt this way it was about Ryan, and that didn't end well.  I trusted Louis, I really did, but the thing was…I didn't trust myself.  "There you are."  He said, squatting down in front of me.  I quickely tried to wipe away the mascara that had run down my cheeks.  "Are you alright?"  He asked, turning my chin with his hand so he could see the spot where she slapped me.  He ran his thumb gently over the red handprint on my cheek.

"You saw that?"  I laughed a little, through the tears.

"Yeah."  He practically whispered.

"Did everyone see it?" I asked more seriously.

"Yeah."  He sighed.  I kind of loved that about Louis, he didn't sugar coat anything.  He wouldn't lie to me, even if he thought it would make me feel better.  I felt a rain drop hit the top of my head and I looked up to the sky just as it started to pour.  "We should get back inside."  He said, standing up and holding out his hand.  I shook my head.

"No."  I stated, looking up at him.  "No, I'm not going back in there."

"Well alright then."  He said, sitting down next to me. We sat there in the rain for a while.  "Could we at least walk to my car?"  He finally suggested.  I nodded and we slowly started walking towards the parking lot in the rain. I shivered due to the fact that it was winter, it was raining, and I left my coat inside.  He noticed and took of his blazer and placed it around my shoulders.  "You know that wasn't right, what she did, and everyone knows it.  Harry was so mad I thought he was gonna hit a girl."  He chuckled and I did as well.  "She didn't mean it, what she said, I'm sure she didn't mean it.  She was just trying to get under your skin."  I nodded.

"Did you mean what you said?"  I asked suddenly, looking up to meet his bright eyes that practically glowed through the pouring rain.

"What did I say?"  He asked, narrowing his eyes a little.

"When you said I was gorgeous.  Did you mean it?"  The truth was my feelings for Louis were real, no matter how much they scared me and a part of me had to know if he felt the same way.

"I've always meant it.  Every single time I told you how beautiful you are I meant it."  He stopped and we both turned to face each other.  He put his large hand on my lower back and slowly started to pull me in until our faces were barely even inches apart.  They were so close I felt like my thoughts were traveling into his brain.  Like he could hear everything I was thinking.  I could feel his warm breath on my cold face and it made my skin tingle.

"Stop."  I whispered.  It took every ounce of will power I had to say that.  He stopped, but didn't pull away.

"Alice, I'm crazy about you.  I know it scares you, but I can't help the way I feel about you.  It's just something about you, I don't know what it is, but I need it."  He whispered, not moving from the position he was in.

"You think I don't feel the same way?  Louis, I want to kiss you more than anything, I've wanted to kiss you since the first day I met you, but I just can't."  I started to cry a little.  I don't even know why I was crying, I guess I was just overwhelmed and frustrated with my own feelings.  He never moved his eyes away from mine.