The Secret Behind the Scars

Part 8

Day 15

I’m going to admit, I’m not the brightest person out there. Actually, I might be one of the dumbest people out there. And let me explain why.

Ever since I last saw Liam, I became a sobbing mess again. I would cry until I couldn’t cry anymore, pass out, then cry some more. That became the constant cycle over the past few days.  I was just in so much pain, both physically and emotionally.

Emotionally because I honestly do love Liam. I wish I didn’t, I wish for nothing else then to have never met Liam Payne, I wish he wasn’t my soul mate. But he is and I can’t help, but love him. A person can’t help but love their soul mate because a soul mate is your other half. Although, even if Liam wasn’t my soul mate and I wasn’t born with the scar, I think I would still have fallen in love with Liam.

Physically because I’m getting worse every day. My bones and muscles cry out in pain every time I move. I get such bad headaches that I don’t move from my bed all day. My hair is continuing to fall out and I really can’t hold down anything anymore.

So, I decided I would take away the pain for a while. And that’s what makes me one of the dumbest people out there.

Yeah, I got drunk.

I’ve always done stupid things when I get drunk. Like the time I jumped off my friends roof into a pool, fully clothed, cell phone on me and all. Or the time I jumped out a tree because I thought I had developed the ability to fly. That ended me in the emergency room with a broken leg and eight stitches above my eyebrow.

I still rather of done all that over again then what I have done tonight.

The first stupid thing I did was shave my entire head. Ok, maybe that isn’t so stupid, but I really liked my blonde hair and now it’s gone.

The second stupid thing I did was left the house. If I’m at home, at least my mom might be there to make sure that I don’t do stupid things. If I’m out in public, who knows what I’ll do, I’ll probably end up in jail for the night actually.

The third and the most stupid thing I did was I went to Liam’s house.

I giggled uncontrollably as I tripped over the WELCOME mat. I kept ringing the doorbell until a very sleepy and disoriented Liam answered the door. “Niall, what are you doing here? It’s eleven and I have school in the morning.”

I giggled again and started poking his cheek repeatedly. “You are so cute when you are all sleepy and shit.”