The Secret Behind the Scars

Part 15: Epilogue

One Year Later

I took a deep breath to try and calm myself down. I went over my half-assed speech again before I felt ready. I took one more deep breath before knocking on the door in front of me.

I was in a semi-panic state. Thoughts of I should just leave and why did I decide to do this at six in the morning kept going through my head as I waited for the door to open. I was actually getting ready to leave when the door opened up.

A sleepy, bed head, sexy, confused Liam Payne stood in the doorway. His eyes widened in surprise. “N-Niall?”

I took one last deep breath before I started. “So, this me, Niall Horan. I’m a seventeen, almost eighteen, year old boy just now in my Junior year. I was held back a year because I had missed a total of two months of school due to the…incident last year and I just couldn’t catch up. Summer school wasn’t an option because I was too busy working.

“I moved out of my parents’ house and now live in this little shoebox apartment. I work a full time job just to pay for the rent and the other bills and the horrible cheap stuff they call food now. I managed to get my parents to sign an emancipation of minor form. They didn’t want to, but I had managed to guilt them into it. I still haven’t talked to them, even though they had apologized several times, and maybe someday I will talk to them again, but today is not that day.

“I had gone on anti-depressants soon after I was released from the hospital. I went through several side effects due to the anti-depressant. I was always, always had a head ache, couldn’t sleep most nights and if I did get sleep it was only a few hours, but the worse was the fucking weight gain. Of course, all the ramen and Chef Boyardee didn’t help, but I can’t afford much better. After six months of the meds, I quit taking them because the symptoms were just too much for me to handle.

“I’ve gained thirty pound within the past year, which is kind of good because I had lost quite a bit of weight when I was sick. But now I weigh about five pounds more than when you first met me and I wasn’t exactly skinny before. I haven’t grown an inch in over a year leaving me at the pathetic height of five foot six and you look like you’ve gown to be a fucking giant. I can’t afford anymore blonde hair dye, let alone a haircut. New clothing is not an option for a while as well.

“I guess the only good thing that came out of the past year that I became really good friends with these four really nice and cool lads. They know our story, which is ok because they’re all soul mates with each other. You know, like two of them are soul mates and then the other two are soul mates? Anyway, they are really nice and I know you would love them. They actually helped convinced me to do this and don’t take that the wrong way because I’m here because I want to be here, they just…gave me the extra push.

“I know this is a lot and I know I am rambling, so I’ll just finish up with this last bit. I’m fucking miserable and lonely and most days I feel so unloved and life is just so hard. And, you know, I don’t have to feel this way. I mean, you were there, willing to love me and wanted to be with me and I was just so stupid to tell you go. Now, I’m not asking for your money or your sympathy or your pity. So, I guess what I am asking is, if you still want me, if you still love me, will you take me back?”

It was silent for a long while after my speech. I was kind of nervous throughout the entire silence. But I am willing to give him all the time he needs because I know this was unexpected and a lot to take in.

I was startled out of my mini-panic attack by Liam’s arms going to my thighs and him lifting me in the air. I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck as my back was shoved up against the wall and his lips were pressing feverishly against mine.

This was exactly what I needed. I don’t mean kiss exactly, although that is nice too. But, I missed being close to Liam, I more of needed to be close to him. I don’t know if it’s a soul mate thing or not, but I was so fucking miserable without him and I just didn’t want to feel like that anymore.

After several long minutes of heatedly making out, I pulled back enough to get in some air. “I…take that…as a yes?” I panted out.

He chuckled and pressed his lips against mine again before speaking. “Of course it’s a yes. Niall you are so beautiful and so smart and just so brave and courageous and you didn’t deserve all the stuff you’ve been through in the past year. You don’t deserve what I put you through, in fact I should be the one asking if you will take me back. But, I told you to take all the time you needed and when you were ready I would be right there and that was a promise I never planned on breaking. And I’m so happy you are hear because it was so hard staying away from you and I just love you so much.”

I can feel tears come to my eyes, but I refused to cry. I rested my forehead in the crook of his neck for a bit and let out a weak chuckle. “God, I missed you so much and I love you too. Can we just pretend this whole past year never even happened?”

He pulled me back enough so that he was able to see my face. “Niall, my beautiful, sexy, lovely soul mate, will you do me the honors of possibly spending the rest of your life with me?”

I giggled and played with hair at the back of his neck. “I don’t know, the rest of your life is kind of a long time. How about you take me inside and show me just how much you love me before I give you my answer.” I finished off with an over exaggerated wink.

He smirked at me. “You cheeky bastard.” He went into to connect our lips again, but stopped right when our lips were lightly brushing. “I love you.”

I smiled against his lips. “I love you too.”

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So, this is the end and I don't plan on making a sequel. This story turned ot so much better then I expected it too. This was just an idea I had one night when I was half asleep and it turned into this. I'm actually quite proud of this story and I thank you guys for going through the story for me.

Since this story as come to an end, I am going to start a new story called Psychiatric Evaluation. It's a Niam, Lashton, and Malum story and if you guys are interested in it, I'll be either posting the first chapte tonight or tomorrow based on when you guys want it up.

So, anyway, thanks again guys for reading this story. Seriously, you guys are awesome and I love all of you!