Forever Waiting || Yoonmin

Chapter 54 - There's more?

Jimin's POV

"After that I pretty much had to live with the fact that I'm gonna die soon." Yoongi finishes and all I could do was sit there in silence, staring off into the dying sunset.

He had to go through all that?

Not only did he lose his mom because of his illness but it came back!!

I blink a couple of times, drying my eyes with my sleeves since some tears had escape during his confession.

"You remember that day I tried to jump?" He asks slowly, large tears rolling off his cheeks. I nod, unable to speak.

"That wasn't the first time I tried to do it. There were multiple times before, some that almost cost my life. Every time I did it there was no one there to stop me, I felt like such a burden on my family and I couldn't cope with it."

I gulp, swallowing the huge lump in my throat while he continues, he stares down at a rock, kicking it away while he smiles.

"But then you were there. You saved me that day and I never even thanked you for it. After that day I felt sort of like there was hope for me."

I whimper a little at his words as they strike my heart,

"You know that day, you must've left a mark on me because I could forget you, I couldn't stop thinking about you to the point I tried fooling around with different girls to get over you." He states.

"Like that time you caught me in the practice room, when I saw your face appear so hurt, it broke me." He purses his lips while a few more tears fall.

"Then you started avoiding me, I don't blame you for doing that. But I'm not gonna lie it did hurt, and then when you agreed to go on that date. I wanted to tell you, you can't but I didn't have the right too." My eyes widen,

So he was jealous then?

He stares off into space, his Adam's apple bobs before speaking, "then that day I fainted in school, you saved me again. You could've just left me there but you didn't. When I found out it was you who brought me to the nurse's office. I-just..." he stops, trying to catch a breath.

"I knew then that my feelings were growing for you."

"I-I don't know what to say. Sorry." I finally speak up, staring down at the ground as I watch my feet.

"Don't be sorry, it's a lot to take in." Yoongi smiles while taking my hand in his.

His smile soon changes into a frown, "however that same day when I woke in the hospital, they told me more bad news." He sighs,

"W-what?" I stutter, "what did t-they say?"

Yoongi stares down before looking back up at my eyes, "that the cancer is worse, that it has spread to my kidneys and lungs so there's even less of a chance of me surviving now."

Silence fell over us for a few moments till Yoongi speaks again,

"They estimate that I wouldn't make it to the end of the year." His voice so vulnerable and quiet, I almost had a hard time catching onto every single word he spoke.

"B-but you can't just leave m-me." I selfishly cry out.

Yoongi bites his lower lip while glancing away, his grip on my hand tightens, "this was why I didn't want us to get close, how I constantly tried to push you away. I didn't want you to be like Hoseok, trapped with the idea of losing someone you care about."

My eyes widen,

So this was all the reason why he tried to avoid me,

This was the reason why Hoseok stopped talking to his friends and spend most of his time caring for his brother.