Alex Danvers | Depression

Chapter 7 - Is she happy?

1 month later
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There was only one way for Alex to make it seem like she was better, like she was happy. Fake it. Throughout the past couple of weeks Alex would force smiles, laughs and so on. Maggie and Kara still worried about her but it really did look like she was getting better.

When Alex needed to cry she would just say she's going to the bathroom or makeup some kind of non obvious excuse. When she needed to cut, she was smarter and went for her thighs instead. Even though this may seem to have helped, it only made her feel worse but she couldn't let anyone know that.

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Alex walked through the DEO halls and went for an empty training room, she walked in and looked behind her to make sure no one was around. She quietly shut the doors. She sat against a wall and took deep breaths. After about 4 breaths, she broke,  she brought her hands to her face and cried. She tried to cry quietly so no one would hear her but Winn just happened to be walking by when she let out a louder sob...

He took a small peak in the room but didn't see anyone so he kept walking, but he heard it again and went back. "Hello?" Alex tried to stop crying but she couldn't. Winn walked in all the way and found Alex sitting on the floor with her hands on her face. "Hey you okay? What happened?" He approached her. Winn didn't know about Alex's depression because Alex didn't want anyone to.

"Uh nothing I'm fine." Alex said looking down.

"Alex-"

"I said I'm fine" She stood up and left. Left the DEO. She needed a drink

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"Another please" Alex slurred to the bar tender.
Within a couple of minutes Winn shows up, "Hey Alex," He tries to talk to her.

"Bullshit." She slurred.

"What?"

"Bull. Shit." She attempted to get up and leave but nearly fell.

"Woah, woah." Winn caught her.
"Okay, lets get you home."

They soon pulled into the apartment building.
Winn got out of the car and to the other side to help Alex out. She paused for a second. "Alex?" He asked. She put her hand over her mouth trying not to throw up, but that didn't work very well so she threw up all over the floor.

"That's great.." Winn said to himself.

"Sorry.." Alex whispered.

He helped her out of the car and to her apartment room.

He layed her down on the bed and tucked her in. He just watched TV, he didn't want to leave her by herself. At least not after he saw the scars on her arm..