Bluecid

9

I now locked myself in my room. I rarely came out. I couldn't face her. She lives where i live. My mother is there with her. She was glowing while pregnant while I was deteriorating. I barely ate. I barely slept  but i did cry. Everyone seemed to love her.

She is the perfect woman.

My own mother loved her. She cares for her more than she does of me. Nobody as in my mate or mother have come to check up on me.

The only person taking care of me and making sure i was okay was an omega female who helps me bathe, makes sure I somewhat eat, consoles me at times which is none other than Martha. At times i think that without her i would be dead along with the child i am carrying.

"Miss Luna please eat your soup." She says worried as my tears fall down my face. I get like this when my heart break hits me hard. I want to leave and not worry about anyone. How can i? My child is the future of this pack, where would i go? I have nothing... nothing to fall back on.

I am trapped.

"Does she sit on my seat next to him?" I asked.

"Yes." Says Martha.

More tears came down my face. It did not take a genius to realize that she has taken my place as Luna. I still hold the tittle but she is the one.

"Does my mother also sit with her  at the table?" I questioned.

"Yes." Says Martha with a sympathetic voice.

"That will be all Martha." I say. She nods and walks out the room.

I get more broken as days go on. I have no one... Cassidy is no longer here, My only supporter. The only person that would fight for me and help me through all of this.

Why does my mate hate me.

Why does she keep on taking everything from me! Why does she keep doing it! She knows he's my mate and still continues to sleep with him. Why do they both hurt me.

"I can't do this!" I say crying. "I am slowly losing my mind."

I stood and went to the corner of the wall. I slid down holding my hand. I wanted an out. I can't do this anymore. I grabbed a silver butter knife. I needed this to feel better and stress. I need to cope with the pain in a way.

I started to cut my wrist. Blood started to pour out of me. The sliver burned my skin.

"Stop  doing that." I hear a soft voice. I look up its Cassidy with a vibrant light outlining her. I couldn't seem to speak. Tears kept coming out of my eyes. "Don't Cry."

"Cassidy i need you?" My throat is raspy. "I don't think i am going to be able to continue to do this."

I wanted to die. Cassidy had tears falling down her eyes.

"Please don't tell me that." She says holding my face in her hands and wiping my tears. "You are a strong woman?"

I am weak and pathetic.

"There is nothing left for me." I say sobbing.

"Your child is going to need you." She says. "You can get through this."

I could not seem to stop crying.

"I want to join you."

Cassidy shook her head.

"It's not your time."

With that she was gone.

She's gone.

I layed myself on the ground.

"LUNA!" I hear Martha sounding scared. I opened my eyes. "You are bleeding."

"I know... I am fine." I say as she helped me stand. I felt so lightheaded. She helped to the bathroom to shower. I layed there watching the water turn red.

I need to make it.

I can't abandoned my child, I can't.

"I need you to go shopping for baby clothes for my son." I tell Martha.

"I will arrange a car to take us Luna." Says Martha.

I nodded. I got ready. I look dead without life. I lost so much weight. I had to prepare for the baby. Nobody else will.

"Everything is ready." Says Martha holding the door.

I walked out the door.  I walked slow as i walked to the downstairs of the pack house. There A lot of people there. Normal and high ranking pack members. I saw my mother talking to pack members and thats when i saw her next to my mom. She looked so beautiful and glowing. She has a ribbon on her. It was her baby shower. Everyone looked at me.

Their Luna.

I could not stand to be here. The people made way for me to walk by. Martha help me inside the car. Once the door was closed and Martha got inside. The car drove off and i broke down.

Martha rubbed my back.

When we got to the store. I bought everything my child would need.It took me a few hours to get back. When I did a few Omegas brought all the things up to my room. Everybody who was celebrating her baby shower was now outside. You can here the people laughing and having a good time.

I closed my door again.

Slowly I felt my life started to lose its meaning. Everyday i started to just on a rocking chair. I only ate a little. Nobody not even my mate or mother came to visit me. Martha told me that my mate was not home that he was out meeting another pack and that he took her with him.

"Luna i bought you something." Says Martha handing me a small bag. I opened it. It was a small pair of shoes for my baby. I could not seem to hold in my tears.

"Thank you so much." I say sobbing and hugging her. She the only person to have bought me something.

Later that week i was all alone. Unfortunately Martha was on vacation. I had a maid bring me food and leave. It was mid day i started to feel pain in my lower parts. Not long after that my water broke.

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