Fifty Shades of Fatherhood

Chapter 8

Christian

Since I was already in the midwest and my meeting ended much sooner than I had expected I decided to drop in on my manufacturing site in the suburbs of Chicago. I always learn so much more on surprise visits then scheduled. Taylor was at at the cell store waiting for my new phone to sync from the cloud. Given how much proprietary information I keep on my device Taylor oversaw the sales clerk to make sure my sensitive information remained uncompromised.

By the time Taylor showed up at the site with my new phone I was ready to head out. Since I rarely visit locations, it is exhausting when I do. Everyone is demanding for a moment of my time and wants to pat themselves on the back for everything they have done. Making sure I take notice of their accomplishments even though we have programs that recognize achievements; the team needs that reassurance from me.

The situation brought Ana to my mind and wondering if she felt the same, that she was searching for my approval and acceptance. Did she need the same level of reassurance my employees craved? My heart softened when I realized there was probably some truth in that statement. Then my mind turned dark, and I felt like the ultimate asshole waking a pregnant woman in the middle of the night throwing her on the streets. I sure as hell did not give her any support. When I spoke to Flynn about my reaction, he did not allow me to feel better about it either. I skirted the details about waking Ana and forcing her out of bed to leave in the middle of the night, but his keen mind circled back to my vague retelling. He did not know how I could be so cruel and we have spent days analyzing my reaction to Ana's pregnancy.

On the flight home, I was quiet reflecting on my day, Ana and how I felt. The anger led to resentment, and this is the emotion I can not move past. I wanted to return to the time when Ana and I were blissfully happy, and there is no pregnancy in our way.

We landed when the charity ball was about to begin. I have a closet in my office that I keep spare clothes from tuxes to workout gear and everything in between. I liked to be prepared for anything. I had Taylor drive to GEH figuring I could shower and change once I arrived.

Taylor and I snuck in a back way as guests had already arrived. I hurried to my office knowing I should make an appearance soon. When we arrived on my floor, Elena greeted me dressed in an elegant gown. When I raised my eyebrow asking what the hell she wanted, she smirked telling me she left me a gift. I was running late and did not have time to deal with her. I looked at Taylor nodding he understood that he was to remove Mrs. Lincoln from the building and make it clear to security she was not to return.

I wondered what the hell she wanted but honestly did not have time to worry about it now. I opened the door nearly tripping over the woman kneeling by the door. I flipped on the light noticing she was nude. Although she was not looking at me, her skin was pale and her hair a dark brown flowing to her mid back. I sucked in a breath she looked like my wife, but this woman was not Ana.

I was unsure how to react, part of me missed the lifestyle, and I had a willing submissive naked at my feet, but the other part of me knew crossing this line was walking away from everything I had with Ana. I still had not decided what to do about my relationship with Ana. I did not want the baby, but I knew they were a package deal. I decided to have her stay bowed in her spot while I tried to contemplate my next move. I went to my ensuite shutting and locking the door behind me. I jumped in the shower and after toweling off put on my tux bottoms. Once I had my pants fastened, I opened the door to see she was still around. Part of me hoped she had decided to leave on her own accord, but the other part of me prayed she obediently waited for me to return. She remained in her submissive position. Temptation coursed through me but until I decided how to handle Ana I was not willing to take this sub.