Fifty Shades of Fatherhood

Chapter 2

I got to my room and threw my bag in the corner. I fell on the bed exhausted in need of rest, but sleep evaded me. I tossed and turned and tried every position, but nothing made me comfortable. I finally must have cried myself to sleep, but unfortunately woke at 7 a.m. extremely exhausted.

Christian

I let out a groan as I rolled over. I felt the space beside me. It was empty. My head pounded. I cannot remember a time that I had been this hungover. I then remembered how angry I had been at Anastasia last night.

I went to the medicine cabinet and took 2 headache tablets then went to see if by chance Ana was anywhere to be found. Her old room and the playroom were empty. I had uncanny ability to feel her presence and I did not feel her in the apartment but decided to check the great room and library anyway. The library had become Ana's safe haven and where she retreated when she needed space. Although this time the room was void of her presence. I padded to the kitchen, Mrs. Jones was at the stove with a look of worry. Taylor and Sawyer were sitting at the breakfast bar intently discussing something. Both swung their heads to me when they heard my footsteps approaching. Their expressions were unmistakably filled with fear and sadness.

It was awkwardly silent for a moment before Taylor finally said "Sir, Good Morning." I nodded wanting to make as little noise as possible.

I then hesitantly asked the question "Where is Ana?" Three pairs of eyes swung to mine in surprise. Honestly, I did not know what I wanted to say to her, I just wanted to know she was around. I was still pissed about the baby, I had made my stance about fatherhood to Anna clear. The silence was becoming uncomfortable before Ms. Jones finally choked "Sir, when you returned home early this morning, you wanted Anna removed from Escala. Taylor checked her into the Olympian earlier this morning." They all stared at me trying to gauge my reaction. Fuzzy memories of last night flooded my mind. I remember anger, yelling and Taylor holding me back. Would I have hurt her? The crumpled ultrasound picture I had thrown in her face before I stormed out.

I put my head down in shame. I clearly was not ready to be a father but I loved Ana. Was I ready to lose her? I needed Flynn, I wanted to talk to him before I said another word to Ana. I needed my head on straight and someone to work through this anger that consumes me when I hear the word baby. This was always a trigger with subs. Anytime they would talk about families or having a baby or even when we were out and they commented about a cute child I cut them loose immediately. There was never any room in my life for a family.

I had always been different with Ana and although I did not want a family, I had given her false hope and deferring to some future date that I never imagined ever coming to. Who knew that, I would knock her up on our honeymoon because she carelessly missed her follow up appointment for birth control. I guess this irritates me the most, this is the one thing she was responsible for in our life and she screwed up in record time.

Sawyer interrupted my thoughts "Sir I am not sure if you want me to take Mrs. Grey to work or what other assignment you had for me today?" I could tell he was nervous to ask. I had been so angry last night I am sure the staff thought my dad would be here first thing to start the divorce paperwork. "Please take her as normal, I will text her to let her know you will take her to work." Taylor and Sawyer shared worried glances before Sawyer rose heading to the elevator. I did not miss the look of surprise on both their faces. Based on my limited memory from last night I know I was too harsh, and should not have kicked her out in the middle of the night or at all for the matter. Fuck me.

Mrs. Jones put a greasy plate of eggs, bacon, sausage, toast and coffee in front of me. She had not even asked what I wanted this morning. I ate without argument although this meal had far more calories and fat than I usually consumed for breakfast.

Taylor waited until I was nearly finished eating before he finally said "Sir, there is one more thing we should discuss." I looked at him puzzled but nodded at him to go on. Just then Ana responded to my text about Sawyer picking her up. Her response nearly broke my heart. Taylor read the text over my shoulder but kept his expression impassive. I screwed up but I did not want to involve my staff in my marital affairs anymore then I already had. Her response was cold and calculated, and made me feel like I was a jerk. I finally barked to Taylor "what is it?"

"Last night when Ana and I entered the parking garage, Mrs. Lincoln was trying to figure out how to get into Escala. She wanted me to let her into the apartment and spewed a lot of hateful comments to Ana. Ana believes you had run to Elena and that you came back to Escala last night only so that you could leave Ana for Mrs. Lincoln." I was pissed and my eyes went wide with shock "That is preposterous Taylor." He shrugged before he continues "Mrs. Lincoln stated that when she stopped at the light on the corner of the building looking for a parking spot but before the light turned green you jumped out of the vehicle leaving her behind. She had waited for you thinking you would only be a moment. When she saw Ana and I, Elena was all but singing victory to Ana." "Fuck me. Is that all Taylor?" I bit out, before I stormed to my office to deal with this shit.