Unfulfilled Wish // XXXTENTACION

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Jahseh just drove Laurie home so it's just me and him in the car.

"So, do you want to go eat something or?" He asked me.

"Why not? I mean me and Laurie were the whole time at the mall so I'm hungry." I said rubbing my stomach.

"Yeah, how about subway?" He asked.

"Hm, I don't see why not." I said closing my eyes to rest them cause a bitch was tired.

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I woke up to someone shaking my body. I opened my eyes and saw Jahseh.

"Rise and shine babe, time for a meal." He said and laughed. I rolled my eyes and got out of the car. It's still night, ugh why can't I get once a good sleep?

We went inside and stood in the line. Once it was our turn he nod his head towards me signaling me to chose first.

"Just order me something healthy." I said to Jahseh and he did as told. He also ordered himself something, but I was too tired to listen to them.

The man gave us our orders and I pulled out my money out of my pocket. I was about to give the man my money but Jah pulled it out of my hand and placed them back into my pocket.

I shrugged it off and watched him give the man money. We got out of Subway and I slapped his arm.

"And please explain to me what was that for?" He asked innocently.

"Nigga I was supposed to pay. I tried being good for once." I argued.

"There's no need for that baby girl, I can buy you the whole world." He said, damn I thought he didn't like me after allat shit, but guess I'm wrong.

"Awe, that's so sweet!" I squealed. We got to his the car and I hopped in. He smiled and started the car.

He drove while I ate my food. It was actually delicious, didn't think he would order me something nice to be honest.

While he was driving we were in silence until my phone went off. I grabbed it from my back pocket and read the message.

Michael
Hey, wyd?

Going home lol, wyd?

Michael
Chillin, how you been? What's going on in your life?

I am good, thanks for asking and nothing, my life is boring as fuck.

Michael
You tryna meet up sometime?

Why not?

Michael
When u free?

Tomorrow or next weekend.

Michael
Then how about Saturday. Lummus park, next to the workout shit. Be there at 2.

Kk, see you.
Read.

I smiled and thought to myself I got a new friend.

"Who was that. What you smilin' fo'?" He asked me.

"Nothing important." I simply replied.

"Ah, come on tell me." He begged. He begged more and more until I gave up.

"Ok, Fine! So I met this guy on ig and he seemed cute and nice, I guess. We have made a deal to meet at Lummus park." I told him while he kept his eyes on the road.

"And do you know who is this guy, his age and shit." He asked.

"Yeah, we texted and that's pretty much it." I said. He facepalmed himself and kept on driving until we got to my house.

I thanked him said bye and went inside of the house. My mother still wasn't home, that's weird cause usually she would be home by 9 pm, but now it's 11 pm.

I decided to wait for her a bit more before I go to sleep, I'm worried a bit honestly, but not too much. I went on YouTube and watched PewDiePie, the best goddamn youtuber of all time.

I love his one video where he looks at top 100 beautiful men and he was eighteenth and then he yelled "18 NIGGA!" even tho some say it's racist, that's what I call comedy, some people just don't understand.

It was 1 am and my mother still hasn't came. I placed my iPhone to charge and went to sleep.

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New morning, same shit as yesterday. I got up and did my usual morning routine. I went downstairs and my mother wasn't home, what the fuck now I'm really fucking worried.

Suddenly the telephone rings and I picked it up.

"Hello? Is this Nataly Smith?" A person asked over the phone.

"Yes, um who is this?" I asked. My heart was racing because I knew something was wrong.

"This is your mother's nurse. She had a car accident yesterday and she woke up just a few minutes ago so we asked her the password of her phone so we can call her emergency contact." A single tear escaped from my eye.

My whole body felt numb. The telephone dropped out of my hand and I fell on my knees. I cried for a good hour and then I told myself I gotta be strong.

I took a little bit of money from my wallet and I went to the hospital by the bus. I ran inside and asked the lady at the desk where is my mother.

"Room 606." She responded. I ran up the stairs until I found the room. I went inside and saw a nurse next to my mother.

"What happened? How did she crash? Why?" I had so many questions.

"I'll let you be alone with your mother." She said. I nodded and she got out of the room leaving only me and my mother in the room.

"Momma, what happened?" I asked furrowing my eyebrows. She stared at me for a second before she broke down. She was sobbing loudly.

"I'm so sorry. Please forgive me!"

"You didn't do anything wrong momma, what are you sorry for?" I asked her. Just watching her cry makes me cry.

Imagine it like for yourself. Watching the only family you have in front of you crying, damn hard. And especially when something is wrong.

"I- I'm sorry." She continued crying.

"Mom stop saying sorry just tell me what's wrong!"

"I have lung cancer."

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