Unfulfilled Wish // XXXTENTACION

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Recently me and Jahseh got into a heated fight. We barely talk right now.

Its because we went to hang out with some friends in a attic. We had alcohol and weed. Jahseh talked with some boys and I talked to one girl and a few boys cause me and that girl were the only females there.

Her name is Chanell and she is very nice. At first I thought she is very rude but nah she actually turned out to be very chill.

Then when we got home he started yelling at me why was I talking to the boys. I was like the fuck???? Cause I know damn well I can talk to whoever I want.

I was angry as hell and so was he. And now we don't talk. And anytime we do I yell at him to clean his dishes cause if he gone yell at me for talking to boys I'm not gonna do anything for him.

If he apolgises I would forgive him. But I guess he's not that nice to apologize. Oh yeah and I bought myself a car. Its a ford fiesta and its blue. I bought that one cause I can only afford that.

Jah signed the papers and that was a day before we went to the attic.

Now im going to the mall cause I have nothing to do in this house. When I sit in the house the whole day I cry at night cause I feel like a worthless piece of shit.

I picked a pair of blue jeans and a grey shirt with long sleeves. I wore my ankle boots.

I grabbed my key and went to the door. I grabbed my keys.

"Excuse me where are you going?" I rolled my eyes and looked at Jah like he was a idiot.

"Excuse me. You aint my mom bye." With that I just went straight to my car. He is so selfish.

I picked up Chanell and Laurie because I'm most definitely not gonna go to a mall myself, that is boring.

"Hey hoes!" I greeted them. They got in.

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15 minutes forward and we're there.

"Bitch I'm hungry." Laurie whined.

"I'm hungry too. I didn't eat anything today." I said.

When we found a parking spot I parked the car and we walked to the mall. First we went to McDonalds.

"I fucking hate McDonalds". Even if you ate 10 big macs you wouldn't be full. I AM CONFUSION PLS EXPLAIN lol.

We ordered 3 big Mac menus. Even though I know I will never be full, ugh.

:::

About 3-4 hours later im home and I felt exhausted. I walked into the house.

Firstly I left the clothes that i bought in the closet.

Then I changed and I had to let coco outside to jump in the pool.

2 hours later im tired as fuck I just wanna go to bed and thats what i did.

I got ready for bed and i fell asleep immediately

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I woke up at 4 am. Jahseh was asleep next to me. And I wasnt tired at all cause I went to bed early as hell.

I laid in bed thinking about stuff. What if i start writing my own song. Lol that would be good, cause clearly issa opportunity.

But first I want to come up with a name

I'll do it tomorrow, with Chanell and Laurie.

So since I couldn't sleep I went to eat sum. I made some macaroni and cheese, and its 4 am. Yes.

When I was done I ate it and while I was eating it I thought about stuff. I think I should break up with Jahseh.

I mean I love him and all but hes damn crazy. And I cant be with him if he dont change.

When I finished eating I washed the dishes and I grabbed my phone and called Laurie.

She answered after like 30 seconds.

"What the hell do you want Nataly. Its 4 in the fucking morning." She answered annoyed

"Sorry damn but issa emergency. So I plan on breaking up with Jahseh. So I want to ask you if I can stay at yours?" I asked shyly.

"Ugh ok. Just pack your shit and come here but dont come earlier than 8 cause Im sleeping." She warned me.

"Okay thanks boo. See you later." I said and ended the call.

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Its 7:34 am and I'm currently packing my shit.

"What the fuck are you doing?" I turned around and saw Jahseh. He grabbed the little suitcase full of makeup out of my hand and and threw it on the floor.

"I can't do this anymore." I said quietly. Inside i was upset cause of the makeup. There is toofaced, benefit and l'oreal shit there and that is damn expensive.

"Baby you cant leave me." And there he stood with the tears in his eyes.

"Im sorry." I grabbed the suitcase and placed the last item inside.

I closed the suitcase and I grabbed the car keys.

I went straight outside and placed one heavy suitcase in the trunk and the small suitcase in the front.

I drove off to Laurie's

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I knocked on the door and immediately Laurie opened the door.

"Hey boo. Im so sorry about what happened. Come in." She welcomed me.

"Thank you. But that nigga crazy, at least I got rid of him, kinda. I mean i do love him. But if he gone be like this hell nah I aint with that shit." I responded.

"Okay girl whatever u say. Now lets get ur stuff unpacked and then do something to get thing off of your mind."

"Good idea."