Who Do I Choose (Book 1) {COMPLETED}

Chapter 11

Jungkook's POV:
  *Monday Morning*
While I was getting ready for school I was wondering if I should wait for Y/N outside her house like I usually do. Yes, I was still mad at her but I still wanted to protect her. I always worried if something would happen to her if she walked to school alone. Before we went to go out I was hesitating because I didn't want Y/N to walk alone. But she seemed fine and she really wanted me to go so I just made sure for her to text me when she got home.
I decided to wait for her but I just wouldn't talk to her. I don't understand why she can't just choose one of us. I went to her house and waited for her.
  A few minutes later she came out of her house and right away I heard her say, "Jungkook I'm so so so sorry please why didn't you answer my calls or texts I was..." I cut her off by saying, "Don't talk to me I only decided to walk you because I want to keep you safe but it doesn't mean I'm not mad at you." "Ok." I heard her say quietly. We started walking and the whole time there was silence. I started to feel bad and was about to say something but then I decided not to.
  Once we reached the school gates I left Y/N and we went in our separate directions. I didn't really know who to hang out with anymore. Before I had Y/N, Jimin and Taehyung. I'm starting to think that I was stupid to get mad at something like that. Taehyung was right. I shouldn't be getting mad because we all like Y/N. But now its to late. We all hate each other. Even if I did say sorry they still probably wouldn't be able to forgive me. The bell rang and I headed to class.
*Lunch Time*
  I got my lunch and headed to a table. I noticed that Y/N was with Jimin and Taehyung. I wonder what they were talking about. I bet Y/N was trying to say sorry or something like she said to me this morning.
Y/N POV:
  Once I had gotten my lunch I tried to find Taehyung and Jimin. I know I said I wouldn't try anything because it would just probably make them more mad but I changed my mind. I saw that they were sitting at a table and I headed towards them, "Jimin, Taehyung, look, I'm really really sorry. I hate it that you guys are mad at me. Jungkook doesn't want to talk to me. Please tell me you guys aren't the same. I know you guys are mad at me for not choosing but it's not that easy. If I choose one the other two will be hurt and I don't want that to happen." "Well to bad Y/N. You should've just choose someone because now all of us are hurt. You had your chance. And I'm sorry but we don't feel like talking to you either." Jimin said. I just stood their shocked. I still can't believe all of this happened because I didn't choose one of them.
  I started to feel my eyes sting and I dropped my lunch and ran to the field. I don't know how to explain how much I hate myself. I'm so stupid! I just want all of this to be over! I don't want to live through this anymore! My best friends, the people who cared for me, the people who I looked up to, the people I thought of as big brothers, there gone. They vanished from my life.
  It's so funny how one day you all hang out and are having the best time of your life, and then the next day you all hate each other. Or they all hate you. I thought of not wanting to live through this anymore. I could just end it right now. I wouldn't have to suffer all the hate anymore.
  I continued crying my eyes out when I decided what I wanted to do. I will just have to wait till I get home. I couldn't stand this anymore. Having so many people hate you felt horrible! I heard the bell ring and headed back to class while wiping my tears.
Jungkook POV:
  When I walked into class I noticed Y/N with her face red and her eyes puffy. I felt horrible seeing Y/N like this. I just couldn't stand it so I decided I would tell her that I'm sorry after school.
*Bell Rings*
  When the bell rang I packed my stuff and was gonna go to Y/N when she ran out the classroom. "Y/N WAIT!" I ran after her but then I lost her. I looked around and didn't see her anywhere. She probably went home already. Maybe I can try calling her later.
Y/N POV:
  Once I heard the bell ring I quickly packed my stuff and ran out of the classroom but then I noticed someone call my name. It sounded like it was coming from Jungkook but I ignored him and kept running.
  Once I got home I put my stuff in my room and looked for what I needed. Finally I had found it in a drawer. A razor blade. I know this is bad but I couldn't stand it any longer. I ran back to my room and sat on my bed. I started to roll up my sleeves when a bunch of thoughts when through my head. Are you sure you want to do this? This is stupid you shouldn't be doing this. There's still time to change your mind. Forget what they said they don't matter to you anymore. Yes, they do still matter to me. I know there mad but I still want us to be best friends again. But I decided I still needed to do this. I put my arm out and put the razor blade on my arm. I hesitated a bit but then I did it. "Ahhhh!" I screamed as it started to sting and I just watched the blood drip down my arm. I started doing it again on my other arm but then I heard my phone ringing. It was Jungkook. I didn't want to answer it. I continued to cut myself more and I yelped a little as they stung really bad. The blood started to drip to my hand. My arms, my hands and my cloths were stained with blood. I decided that I didn't want to do it anymore so I cleaned the blade and hid it in my nightstand. I walked to the bathroom and washed my hands and arms. I screamed as the water went over my cuts and started to sting. Once I was done I looked at myself in the mirror.
  I now realized that I just did something so stupid! What was I thinking! Why was I doing this to myself! I ran back to my room and jumped on my bed and once again started crying my eyes out. I wish you guys were still here with me. I wish you were by my side trying to comfort me.
Jungkook POV:
  I tried calling Y/N but she didn't answer. I tried calling again but it just went back to voicemail. I know Y/N and she would've answered and started saying sorry but she didn't answer. Maybe she really was hurting this bad. What did we do! She's so fragile and because this happened she's broken into a million pieces. I hope nothing happened to her. I started to worry thinking about what could happen to Y/N. She was my best friend and I ruined that. Just like the other times I started to blame myself again. Maybe if I didn't get so mad at Taehyung and Jimin none of this would have happened. Right now we would probably be hanging out and having fun. But instead we're all mad at Y/N because she couldn't choose someone and we don't even want to talk to her. I need to fix this. I need to tell Jimin and Taehyung that I'm sorry and hopefully they forgive me. I need to tell them tomorrow. Hopefully they will listen to me.