"Now, though, I am alone. I know that my happier ending is somewhere on the horizon, but I am currently too far away from it to see what it looks like. For now, all I have is the hope that this cycle will turn upwards again, just like it always has, and bring me to something that I actually enjoy."
I am simply a human afraid to be hurt. A coward. Yes, I am so. I am too weak inside that I am trying to set walls too high for anyone to reach me. Love would only make me weaker, and I just know it. That's why; it's not something I can afford!
I have already decided.
I'd rather remain thirsty and learn to survive deserts, than gulp a drop of poisonous water which will give me momental ecstasy then leave me craving.
The innocent, kind and gentle me that was four years ago... is not here anymore, had a hint of darkness in my eyes, deep inside me, and I did feel I had changed.
