My journey.

Day 4

Im the girl that suddenly stopped talking because  i felt like i was bothering people.

Day 4 of 365.
First chapter for this year.
Been a while watty! I missed you

As of now i am in a crowded place where in a lot of people are sick.
Its my first time to make a chapter inside a hospital.  And the reason why?
Im bored.

I've come to think that i am still in a blessed brio, seeing folks aren't okay.
I hope my lola is okay now, currently laying beside me by the exhaustion she have been through.

Again im sharing my deepest emotions today and recent few days back.
Can i say im inlove?
No scratch that, im healing.
Thanks for the person behind!

I say my blissfulness to the person who made every step reachable.
Thankyou, i am in a gratified vehemence while stating these. I could just probably say ILOVEYOU

But that couldn't be possible as of now. By the time i am still processing my feelings towards this person and his persona.
Yes its a HIS.
I cant even tell how important this guy to me. Let us name him Mibebe 💕

I thank my mom for allowing him for me, for trusting and for being fine towards him. Thankyou Mibebe for doing such a great ideas and for waiting after 3 yrs. I swear to god lunod na lunod na ako sayo.

I drown from my own tears that became a sea, but gladly u made it change my sea to be loved and a lot more emotions of ecstasy. You made my christmas and new year satisfied, enough to be grateful!
In short, you made my december applicable.

For fetching me whenever i need a ride.
For being there all the night i cry to my pillow, turns to be on your shoulders.
For letting me feel how this world accepts me. 
For accepting whatever or whoever i am.
For granting every wishes i hoped for.

I see you as a man. And damn that was my mistake for letting a boy to hurt me while u are waiting for me serenity.
It made my heart ache for thinking about it. That you are a man and i am a fool knowing i let my life slide to a boy not like you.

I've come to realize day by day that it might be my last lesson for 2018, hopefully that i am now ready for 2019.
It made a pang in my chest, thinking maybe I wasn't worth for you.
Cause look! You're too good at everything to the point i even adored you!

I want you so bad and it hurt.

I cant tell.
I cant speak.
I cant share how i felt.
I am shy.
I am nervous.
I am scared. Why?
I guess the damaged are still open,
But for you its healing. Gracias Mibebe!

I never realized this until i found out how u still care towards me. It was never my intention to get you but goddamnit! It hurts seeing your eyes shed in tears for me to be your lady.
I state again my nonstop THANKYOU sa panliligaw kay mama para saakin.

Thanks for granting every plans you've got to my birthday! I hope you lasts! WATTY IS THE ONLY WITNESS THAT ILOVEYOU AND IM ALREADY SATISFIED BY YOUR PRESENCE.

Makatabi or makita lang kita, pakiramdam ko okay na ako. Okay na ulit ako. Sasabog.
Pakiahon naman akooo! Nkakalunod ka kase pakshet hahahah im not prepared tangnaaaa!