*ARIANNE'S POV*
They say the deadliest drug of a human is another human.
Do you believe about that?
Well, ofc yes. I once asked myself why does a human is also vs. human? I am full of questions as well. Does our brain really full of questions?
See that? I even asked myself with an unanswered questions. How foolish!
Let me tell you some things, i was once blinded by love. Love that kills emotions. To be honest it was the first time that i needed answers from that situation.
Being loved feels an ecstasy to my heart, it gives you warm and attention. All of a sudden why it happened to shattered in just seconds.
'Does it really my fault? Kasalanan ba ang pagkukulang para iwan ng isang tao? Taong naging mahalaga, i always thought sapat na sapat ako. But then why? Bakit kelangan mangiwan and to find another person who can lend anything you need? I asked
'Bakit kelangan pang ipakita na meron na, na hindi na ako?
My mind said
Truth to be told, i did everything to put the situation in a nicer way. To make the bond strong, to show how much love is important and to make you feel na sapat ako. Sapat tayo.
I did it for you, bakit kelangan pa na sa iba mo hanapin na pwede namang hingin saakin?
Pangakong napapako ba kamo? Magtitiis pero magsisisi?
Maghihintay sa wala?
Manliligaw ngunit bibitaw.
Oh then Hi there ex!
I asked again myself saying 'bakit ang unfair? Naiiwan pa yung mga taong totoo at marunong magstay. If a person is willing to sacrifice everything, then why bother to left that person sa ere?'
I dont really get life. I dont really understand why people intend to hurt people, same lang naman lahat.
How i hope you can answer all the questions i have. But tangina, may iba kanang dapat pagsagutan ng katanungan. At siya yun, not me.
Kahit saang anggulo pansinin, ikaw at ikaw ang mali. I gave you the permission to be my pilot, and look what you did. You left me hanging by myself. I thankyou for that bec i got my own lessons from you
Ipakita man o iparamdam, iisa parin ang pakay. 'Iwan ako' i cried, to the point I couldn't get my normal breathing.
'Its not my fault, and its all yours ex. You did very well to play me, im wondering, should i call you playboy?' I stated
Umiyak man ako i know nagsasayang lang ako mg oras at luha. Kasi after all, di ka nman kawalan. Im just thinking di ka naman pogi to do that. Lakas amats ba?
It actually pained me seeing you're happy with her, while im here looking at you both from afar. The damage you made is currently healing. Not now but very soon!
In relationship, it should be fair. Tanggap ang bawat isa't-isa, at bawat sitwasyon. Tanggapin sa mundo and umaalis at dumadating.
As of now i am thankful na naging parte ka sa buhay ko. Napagalaman kong dumaan ka lamang kaya lang nagiwan ka ng bakas.
Today, i finally knew na palagi namang talo sa iisang laban. Kumbaga palaging pareho ang kalalabasan kung iisa ng sistema.
