redamancy

what is consent

Because the last time I checked, you all think consent is squeezing your thighs so tight you have to clench your abdomen and your breath is shortening. Shorter. Shortest. Short. He's too close to my face

His hot hair in my neck. No. I said no. Do you not hear me. No. No. No. No.

Does that word mean nothing? You continue. Worming your way into my torso with your fingers that deserve to be chopped off..

What do you do once he's inside you..you can squeeze your thighs and yell at him but when he's there. It's like your eyes turn dark, and your body goes limp. It's over.

There is goes. So much effort to prevent, so many repetitions of the word no. But that means yes.

So tell me? Is it opposite day? Did the definition of the words change and morph into the word rape?

But, wait. I must have consented. He must have heard a yes in there because he did not stop and he would not hurt me.

So I'll go back to my room, and I will grab my pajamas and sit in the bathtub, shower water drowning my thoughts and turning my no into a yes enter please, staring at the shower curtain. Because it's not assault, because he wouldn't hurt me so I must have consented.