Prayers of the damned

Help

Please, whoever is out there, help me. I don't want to do this anymore. Please help me not hurt anymore. I love him. More than anything I love him. But he doesnt care anymore. He doesnt love me. He doesnt care how he makes me feel. He doesnt want me. He has everything he needs, and Im not one of those things. I doubt I ever was. Please help me to get rid of everything that was his or reminds me of him. I have to let him go and move on. He feels nothing for me. And Im just.. so fucked up about it. I feel like I'm a bad person for loving him and wanting him. For wanting to know whats going on with him. I feel like a bad person for wanting him to care. I feel like a bad person because thats what he thinks of me. He thinks I'm a bad person. He thinks I'm selfish, he thinks I only care about me, he thinks Im bad. He thinks I'm a bad person who didn't treat him right. He thinks he was my punching bag. He thinks all these terrible thing of me. And Im not that person. And Im sad that he didn't even know me. The whole five years he didn't know me. He didn't listen to me or pay attention. He didn't care those five years. He didn't love me. Please just help me not care about him like he doesnt care about me. Please help me find my person who actually feels everything that I thought he did. Please just help me stop hurting over someone who doesnt care at all about me. Please help me find someone who thinks I'm worth it. Who doesnt think Im a bad person, who will listen and try to understand. Who will fight for me like he didn't. Who thinks I'm worth the arguments. Who won't lie and say things like "id rather fight with you than love anyone else". Who won't lie and say they need me when they don't. Who deserves my unconditional love and my want to never give up on someone. Mostly... just please help me to get over the boy who doesnt love me anymore.