Prayers of the damned

Let go

Please. Whoever is out there. Whoever is in control of all of this. Make it stop. Make the hurt stop. I don't want to love him anymore. I don't want to hurt anymore. I just want the person who is going to love me how he pretended to. Someone who will love me how I truly love him. Who will miss me and want me around and just. First please make my feelings go away like you did for him. Please don't let me hurt anymore. Maybe he really was the second out of the three times you supposedly fall in love. And maybe I was just the first one to him. Or maybe none of them. But please. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to stay up late thinking of what he's doing. Or who he's talking to. Or who he's with. I want to stop checking my phone all the time in hopes it's him. Someone who loves me like he claimed to could never do this to the person they love. They just couldn't. No matter what. They couldn't. And I'm sure his life is better without me. And he has someone else. And he is happy. And I'm glad. But fuck. Please take him out of my memory. Erase him from my heart. I don't want to hurt anymore over someone who never loved me how they claimed. I don't want to remember him. Please. Please just make me not love him anymore. Not care about him anymore. Make it as easy for me as it is for him