Why don't we just love [ REWRITING]

Part 30

I sing these in order

then I finish

You: thank you everyone for coming today and watching me perform, I love y'all I'll see y'all soon

I walk of stage and I hug everyone they're all so proud of me, they told me, for the rest of the day we're all taking pictures with fans talking to them and getting food, today was perfect it's sad that the boys and Christiana leave tomorrow, it's now 12 pm everyone goes to bed. Zach and I are sharing a bed and he's fast asleep, I walk downstairs to get a drink and moms standing there, ugh

Mom: you have to break up with Zach..
You: why?
Mom: if you don't you will never go back to L.A
You: why are you like this, I love him
Mom: because your my daughter and you do as I say
You: I hate you, I really do, what happened to the nice mom I first met, now your a bitch
Mom: you need to tell him you don't love him or you cheated on him
You: fuck. Okay

I walk upstairs I really don't wanna break up with him but if I wanna go back to L.A then this is what I have to do, I love him with all my heart, without him I feel like nothing, when the boys get back tomorrow they have an interview, I feel bad already and I haven't even told him yet, I fall asleep after thinking though how I'm going to tell him

Timeskip

Zach: I love you, I'll see you soon
You: Zach before you go I've got something to tell you
Jonah: be quick the plane won't catch itself

I whisper to Zach

You: I'm sorry but I cheated on you
Zach: what?

His face dropped, he looked sad like I've just said some ones died, like my feeling but they never died and they won't, he's going to hate me

Zach: you what?
You: I'm sorry. I- I love you
Zach: is that why you went around with another boy is it? If you love me?
You: I'm sorry Zach
Zach: but it's okay you know you just cheated on me no big deal
Logan: y/n is this true

I nod I don't say anything, I'm heartbroken I've just upset Zach and now they all think I'm a cheat, I'm a horrible human being

You: please don't be mad
Zach: how can I not?
You: you've cheated before
Zach: it wasn't me!did you start it with the person?

I nod

Zach: did you fuck him?
You: no Zach I didn't just kissing I swear to you, your the only person
Zach: don't text me ever again.

He walks away toward the gate the boys they look really disappointed in me

Jonah: why?
Corbyn: how could you do that to Zach
Christiana: low
You: please don't be like this
Jack: Zach was right Don't text us again

They all walked away, a tear rolled down my face, I can't let Zach go thinking I'm a cheat, I run after him, as fast as I could, I pushed Daniel out of my way

You: Zach please? I can't let you leave thinking that I'm a cheat
Zach: I don't think it, you are it!
You: please Zach, I love you
Zach: we're over okay
You: look at me in the eye and say it
Zach: were- I can't but we are
You: I'm going to miss you Zach, so much

He don't say anything he just looks down and gets of the bracelet I got for him and he opens my hand and places it on the palm on my hands, I look down and a tear rolled down my face

You: so much for 'I never want to lose you again' I know I brung this on my self i won't try and talk to you anymore, any of you, not even you Christiana, I know I'm not wanted with you guys now, good bye, I do love you all

A/n

Call me stupid but I'm actually crying writing this, I find it upsetting

End

They all look down, I walk away back to mom Logan and Jake, as soon as I get to them, they say are you okay

You; he gave me back his bracelet I got him...

I look at my hand and a tear falls down my face smerring my mascara

You: mom this is ALL your fault

3 hours later

It's the boys interview and I'm watching it

Person: so the fans has asked who's got a girlfriend

Only Corbyn put his hand up

Person: Zach?
Zach: n-no

He didn't talk very much for the interview he was quite and looked upset! What have I done to him?

3 WEEK LATER

the last 3 weeks have been upsetting and I haven't been my self, I've gotten into trouble a lot, I've been arrested once already for vandalism, eh🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️ I don't care (Don't do it kids)  I would draw it Right in spray paint 'I miss him' 'fuck  it' and shit like that, but today I got arrested for it again, they gave me my first warning, if I get 3 I'll go to court, so I'm on my first I've got 2 warning left, I've also hung around with the wrong people, I'm a bad Person, I'm a bitch to everyone now, the break up has had an impact on this and why I started this, I recently got a tattoo 👇🏻

Why I did this ?
I wanted to show no matter what happenes I will always be a limelight, friends with the boys or not, they are my 'sun' when it's dark and they help me though there lyrics, they shine bright

Anyways, I'm in bed and I fall asleep
The deepest sleep I've been in a while, because of everything! What have I don't to Zach, I love him so much, it hurts to see him broken because of me

Thanks for reading

I'm on a school trip for like 4 days so I will try and update when I can, I'm in Paris now, I LOVE YOU ALL