Why don't we just love [ REWRITING]

Part 47

It's  been a few weeks since my last show, yes I have been unhappy I loved Zach I still do, my phone keeps getting blown up with me being tagged in post but I ignore them, I turn my notification for Instagram off, tate, Gabbie and Christiana went to see the boys today but I decided to stay at home, I also brought a apartment next to Logan's because the man before moved out, also the boys are at Logan's house so that's great, I've not had any contact with Zach since the whole Loren thing, I've only spoke to Daniel, I miss him. I haven't seen him since we kissed, I kinda miss that, being kissed by someone when ever they want, being called the princess or the babygirl, or something like that, I miss being loved, or knowing they love me, I text Daniel

You: hey Daniel, can you do something for me?

Daniel 💙: what's up?

You: leave Logan's house, turn left knock on the door first door on that left

Daniel 💙: why?

You: if you trust me you'll do it

Daniel 💙: okay I'm doing it

You: go alone

End of text

I stand at my door and wait for the knock on the door after a few minutes the knock happens, I open the door to Daniels cute smile, he opens his arms for me to hug him and that's what I do, we stand there for a few minutes in eachothers arms, not saying anything, we both pull away from the hug and he looks from my eyes to my lips then back to my each biting his lip, knowing what he wants me to do I attach our lips, moving in sinc, we both deepen the kiss by pulling each other closer, closing any gap between our bodies, not wanting this kiss to end, but there wasn't a spark to it, not like what I had with Zach, it was nothing like it, I pulled away and our foreheads touching, looking into each other eyes, blocking everything out, I hug him once again, putting my head in the crook of his neck, I hear a door open and close, I look to my right and what do I see, the boys, Logan and the girls, I look and Daniel,

Shit

You: I'll see you tomorrow?

Daniel: yeah

You: okay, I'll see you then

It being awkward now because of what happened and they could of hurt us or seen us kiss, Zach looks at me in the eyes and I give him a look

"I'm sorry"

That's the look I gave him, he didn't care, we just stared at each other, everyone soon realised

Jonah: let's leave Zach and y/n to talk

I gave him a "fuck you" look, we haven't spoke for months and why would I want to speak now, I ruined everything. No I did nothing wrong, she showed up acting like she was amazing then left him. Bitch. The boys and girls leave. So I tell Zach to go into my apartment, he does that, we both sit in the sofa

You: I'm sorry

I look at his eyes, he didn't care at all

You: why did you break what ever was going on between us for her?

He looks up at me and open his mouth and starts talking

Zach: because I did okay I know what I did, what was you before we met?

You: a fan

Zach: and that's all you ever was and all you will ever be, your nothing to me and I don't love you

Feeling my heart break into millions of pieces

Zach: I'm so sorry I didn't mean that

You: get out

Feeling the lump in my throat get bigger, I know I'm going to cry, I need him out of my house, now

You: GET OUT MY APARTMENT

he gets up and leave, he was right that's all I was

A fan

Maybe everyone was right

That's all I was

All I was ever going to be

Useless

Nothing

Definitely unloved

I run into my bathroom and take out my pills once again

DANIELS POV

You: hey
8:46

You: you okay ?
8:56

You: you never ignore my texts?
9:00

You: y/n I'm getting worried!
9:05

End of texts

Feeling fear and worry, is she hurt, she might be asleep, I need to make sure she's okay

You: Zachary dean Herron

He coming into the living and sits beside me

Zach: what's up?

You: was y/n okay when you left

He shook his head

You: what happened

He explains everything to me, me getting more worried, I know she can't deal with things like this, hate from the fans or from us, she's not okay

You: no no no no, your coming with me

End of PoV
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I pop them out of the packet and walk into the kitchen to get a drink, I run the tap and take I sip of the water, I open my hand to take one as the door open

Daniel: y/n please don't do it

You: why do you care so much I'm just a fan that's what I was and what I will always be!

My vision starts to go blurry, tears fall out of my eyes

Zach: I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I was just angry

You; angry?! Why would you be angry, you have a perfect life Zach, I just invaded your life and bring you down, I ruined the last 2 years for you, I ruined all of your life's, all I did was bring the drama, I'm just a burden to you guys

Daniel: were going on tour again around Europe

There leaving again

Great

You: have fun yeah

I don't want them to leave

Shut up remember your just a burden to them! Let them leave and you can get them out your life

Zach: we want you to come with us?

Daniel: we've Spoke to Jeff he says you can

You: when are you leaving?

Daniel: as soon as Corbyn better so probably 3 weeks

Do I want to go? WAIT CORBYN?

You: what's happened to Corbyn?!?!

Zach: he has surgery he's in hospital

What? My bean? My best friend!?

You: let's go see him then!!!