Smirks, Books and, Dirty Looks

Owls and Regrets

 Luna and Rowena were playing with some neighborhood kids while Blaise and I sat out on the front yard having some afternoon tea. "Mate?" I looked at Blaise. "Yeah?" He sighed and looked back at me. "You know..she might actually have a point." I knew what he was referring to but decided to stay quiet.  "About seeing someone, you know, to help you with what your going through." He said looking at his cup. 

   I knew he was right but my narcissism just couldn't stop to admit it. Smirking at the bloke in front of me I said, "What, you worried about me? Awe, Blaise, you're going soft mate. I know we might be close but, know your place mate." He looked at me with sad eyes but chuckled none the less. "No, I'm Blaise Zabini. I'm as hard as they get. Soft is not in the name, nor anywhere else on this hot body." He winked and I laughed. It felt like we traveled back in time. Back to when we were just two blokes with more money than we cared to admit, and an infinite amount of time to do what we wanted. 

   We got quiet and the air got tense again, "Seriously Draco, all jokes aside. We all know how hard the war was for everyone. Some got it worse than others. Some just got what they deserved. Us on the other hand.." He shook his head looking me in the eyes, "We got lucky when Snape stepped in. But, that didn't stop us from witnessing and partaking in some things I'm sure you wish you could forget. We are 'purebloods' it's not in the title to ask for help. Besides, our pride is too strong, but it's okay." I nodded thinking of the things I was forced to do. "If Snape hadn't cared for Lily Potter like he did and, consequently Potter, who knows what the outcome would have been and how we all would be living. Maybe, our lives would be worse. Point is you have nothing else to lose."

   I closed my eyes remembering how my potions professor came and saved me from my fate. My late professor, the one person I actually liked and looked to for a sense of guidance even though I never showed it. Still feeling the feelings I felt that night almost made me want to run far away never to look back. I remember seeing him after he killed Dumbledore. Thinking this poor bloke did it. He did what I couldn't do. Now he has to live with my burden while I live a life knowing that he bit the bullet for me. 

   "I know Blaise." I simply said coving my eyes trying to rub the memories away. "I've been thinking about it since this morning and I think it's a brilliant idea. I mean like you said what else can I do. But, who would want to treat me? Where? How?" I looked at him and sighed. "Who would want to treat the ex-Death Eater that took part in the killing of the most powerful and brilliant wizards of all time. Who would want me when I probably have bullied them or there kid? Who would want to treat a Malfoy?"

   My shoulders slumped and I felt a headache coming on. "I know a person." I looked up at him and he smiled. "We both do. Luna and I. This person, well, lets just say is special. We both went to get our head shrunk. Its a muggle term--don't look at me that way!" I chuckled at his embarrassment. Luna had changed him. He sighed and continued.

    "We went when I was going through my father's sentencing. I was a complete wreck having to see mum and my nan go through all that. Plus having to give my statement while looking at the geezer. Not to mention Luna. She was a basket case herself. Having to be locked away in the dungeons at Malfoy Manor. Wormtail coming and going, visiting her each night to take advantage of her. She needed help. Fuck, we both did, and you do too." I looked at his shaking hands and stayed quiet. I knew Luna was being kept in the dungeons at the Manor, but I never thought Wormtail was raping her. 

She doesn't even let on that she was abused. Blaise on the other hand still has bad days but, he is completely better than he was after the war. Maybe it's time to contact that head shrinker. I reached over and cupped his shoulder squeezing it and asked. "Is it safe?" He looked up at me and smiled. "You have no idea." I nervously nodded. "That letter that came for us this morning. It came from the office. That's where you're going to get help." He said quietly. It's definitely time I bite the bullet and man up. 

"UNCKYY WWAAACCOO!" Came the shrill cry of my beautiful goddaughter. We both composed our selves. "Yes my little SlytherClaw!" I yelled right back and got a rock chucked at me. I dodged it narrowly and chuckled. 'Blasted witch's going to kill me one of these days.'  I could see the blond witch come through the door. "Don't call her that!" She laughed. "Hey, it's bound to happen. A snake for a father and air headed little bird for a mother. What is she supposed to be? A stupid lion or a fat fish?" I teased her and Blaise just laughed but stopped once Luna glared at him. "That air headed little bird is mine you ugly snake. Only I get to say that!" He tried not to laugh while saying that.

   Luna walked over and play punched me while she actually punched Blaise. "I'm not air headed, I'm just free." We both looked at her and chuckled. "Uncky Waco? Is you going home today?" Rowena asked and I looked at her sad little eyes and nodded. "Afraid so little one. But don't worry, this handsome man will be back to get you soon. I'll save you from the ugly snake." I winked at her while pointing at her dad. "I resent that! I'm beautiful dammit!" Blaise shrieked arms crossed. Rowena laughed and hugged me. 

 "Wowena going to stay with you and Nana Cissy when my baby brother is bown!" She squealed. "That's right love." I kissed her head and winked at Blaise. 'Whos the favorite now bitch.' I thought and he laughed. "You finally happy Uncky Waco. You eyes look beautiful when you happy." Rowena said into my ear. I smiled and hugged her tighter. "When are you supposed to be going back?" Luna asked. "By dinner, I promised Mother." I responded. "That's our cue to leave little pygmy puff. Mommy and the goblin have somethings to talk about." Blaise said ushering Rowena away towards the door. "Leviosa." I used my hand to levitate Blaise and drop him on his arse. "I am not a goblin you troll." He got up and rubbed his bum and growled something under his breath and walked away with the toddler.

   "I swear you two will kill each other one day. Now what is it we need to discuss?" Luna asked. "I've decided to go." She nodded. "I thought so." With a flick of her wand, "Accio parchment and quill," she said and they flew into her palm from inside the manor. "There's something you need to know before you begin." I waited for her to continue. "We all know this person who is going to help you. She is a person who has suffered greatly, some would say more than most in the war. I won't tell you who just know that you have to have an open mind when you figure it out. Know that she is nonjudgemental and accepts many people regardless of their background." She said in her far off voice.

   I nodded. "How well do I know her?" Luna thought for a moment, "Oh I would say you two had some physical contact back in Hogwarts. Something that's not easy to forget." She smirked remembering the rumors of third year. Draco was lost but decided to move forward. "Is that for me?" He motioned for the parchment and quill.

  "Yes, you need to write and make and appointment." She handed me the stuff and looked away as I started to write.

'To whom it may concern,
My name is Draco Lucius Malfoy, and I am in need of your services. I was told you are the best at what you do. I would like to become a patient. Price is not an issue. I'll await your response. Any correspondence please send it to the Malfoy Estate. Please take note that I do not know who you are and I put my life in your hands.

Kind regards,
DLM.

   I looked up at the blonde witch who was now looking at me with troubled eyes. "I'm okay witch. This is for the best. If you don't mind passing it along, I left where they can reach me at." She nodded and called the house hawk over. "Flare deliver this to room 1004HG in Diagon Alley. Make sure Mrs. Nott receives it. No one else." The hawk bowed and took off. "Who?" I asked confused. "Oh! Theos' wife. Lavender Nott, née Brown." She waited for my response. "He married 'Lav Lav'?!" My face contorted as I hollered. "What an idiot!" She shot daggers at me. "I'm sorry. I just can't." I said as I wiped tears from my eyes from laughing hard. "Anyways, thank you witch I think I'll be going now." I kissed her cheek, she mine and I apperated.