And So I Ran - Complete

Chapter 56

"Please baby, stay? I can't do this without you," I pleaded, refusing to let go of Ana. Now I'd admitted the truth, I was determined to see it through. Even if it cost me my family, I couldn't live with the burden of this secret any longer.

Ana nodded, stepping into my open arms. Ignoring my parents, she embraced me, hard, stroking my chest in that way that calmed me while looking up into my eyes.

"I'm proud of you, Christian. I love you, and nothing's going to change that."

My parents were ominously silent as I held out Ana's seat for her, pulling mine right next to hers. We sat side by side as I held onto Ana's hand as though my life depended on it. I stared out at the million-dollar view of the gloomy Seattle skyline. A couple of days since the sunshine of my mother's barbecue, and now it was all gray skies and rain. Symbolic, really.

"The Elena Lincoln you know is a façade, and far from the real her. She is a sadist, a pedophile and for six years I was her sexual submissive. It started when I was fifteen. I was at her house doing yard work as punishment after I was expelled. I was young and horny, but terrified of starting anything with a girl because they'd want to touch me. Elena knew that, so on the first day I was working for her, she kissed me passionately, then slapped me hard. Then she said she'd see me the next day. I didn't know what to think of it, but I returned."

I took a gulp of water, not daring to look at either of my parents. Ana was stroking my hand softly, so I focused on that, my eyes downcast on her small hand and the huge diamond I'd given her.

"Over the course of the next few months, Elena taught me about sex, BDSM, and made me her submissive. She knew not to touch me where I feared. She pushed every other boundary," I said bitterly, "but in that way, she adhered to my wishes. I had a set of rules that I had to adhere to. If I did, she rewarded me with sex. If I didn't then she would punish me."

I glanced up to see my mother had her hand over her mouth in horror and was weeping. Ana dug a packet of tissues out of her handbag and passed them to her, giving her a sad, knowing smile.

"The punishments were often harsh. Sometimes I was whipped, caned or beaten. Other times she would use sensory deprivation, or if it were school holidays, she'd lock me in a room without food for a couple of days. The worst was when she'd loan me out to other Dominants to use as they wished. It was scary, but Elena convinced me that if I told anyone what was going on, they wouldn't believe me, or would blame me. I soon learned to obey her rules. This continued through until I returned from Harvard and started GEH. Elena was one of the reasons I left Harvard. She wanted me back close to her so she could continue to control me. However, the time at Harvard had given me the space to appreciate I didn't want to continue being Elena's submissive. I only agreed to return to Seattle when Elena promised to bankroll my first acquisition. Around that time, I also started my own practice as a Dominant."

I closed my eyes, unprepared to witness my parents' horror and disappointment.

"That was the only way I knew how to be.. intimate," I explained. "There are clubs for that sort of thing, and I met a young woman who was a submissive," I said, my cheeks flushing bright red. "I had contracts drawn up as well as an NDA. I was never into the more extreme aspects of the lifestyle, and I am sure you don't want to hear details. Suffice to say in that relationship, and every one thereafter, everything was a hundred percent consensual, but they were not relationships in an emotional sense."

"Were these women paid?" my father asked. His voice was emotionless, and I knew he was working through the legal ramifications of all I was revealing.

"No. I would provide them with a new car, and a wardrobe that they could keep once our contract was over, but in the sense you're asking, then no."