The Alpha's Human Mate

Day 10 in Hell

8 Days Later

I sit in my cage with my knees to my chest. Tears stream down my cheeks. Images of everything fill my mine. My arms being burned and Roy laughing happily fill my mind, from the table yesterday. I'm breaking I can feel it. I'm trying to hold on but every day is torture. Either it's the box or table. I don't know what's real anymore. Is the images in the box my reality or is it made up? I don't even know when day and night is. I hear footsteps and I close my eyes knowing that it's time for my torture. A tear leaves my eye and I wait for "Master" to yank me out of my cage. My cage unlocks and "Master" yanks me out of my cage. I'm hooked onto my leash and I use all of my energy to crawl. I go down the row of cages, and I've noticed that there are less and fewer cages every time I leave my cage. We leave the room and get to the torture room. We pass the table and I get ready for the box. I'm lead to the box and the same thing happens. My hands and feet are shackled and earbuds are taped to my ears. I'm then injected with the same drug, and then two men toss me into the box and close the lid on me. I close my eyes waiting for the mocking voice to come on. 

The voice then says,"I see you're back. Well let's not waste time." I open my eyes and a tear imminently falls. I'm in my parent's bedroom. I look around their room and my eyes stop once I see what I'm looking for. I see my Mom and Dad in their bloody bed. I walk over to their bed and I kneel down. 

I then say,"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I begin to cry because these little hallucinations are horrible torture for me. 

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I close my eyes as I let a shaky breath out. I then smell Luke, and I open my eyes. I'm in our cave. I look around and my heart stops when I see a dead Luke on the floor. I begin to cry and scream. Every time I see Luke dead or hurt I lose it. I fall to my knees and put my head in my hands and cry. I begin muttering out the word "sorry" over and over again. I reach out and touch his ice-cold lifeless body. I lay down next to his corpse and cry. The love of my life is dead. 

I then say,"Luke please I need you. I need you, Luke." I cry out as the agony takes me away. I let everything go. I look around and then stop when I see Julia also dead on the futon. I get up and walk over to her and kneel down, and I begin to cry. She was like a sister to me and she's dead because I couldn't save her. I touch her blonde silky hair and I close my eyes not wanting to see anything else. I feel myself being lifted and earbuds being ripped off of my ears.  Minutes later I'm thrown into my cage and I hear my cage door shutting. I open my eyes and sigh once I know I'm in my cage I know I'm safe for a little while. I stare lifelessly at the cage door as tears run automatically down my face. The image of Luke's dead body keeps reappearing in my mind. He's dead, and it's all my fault. I let out a small cry as I lay down on the hard floor and close my eyes.***

DREAM

I look around and I see that I'm in my bedroom at the pack house. I sit up and look around wanting Luke to hold me. I get up from my bed and sprint out of my room. I run down the empty hallway and run down the stairs. I find myself running to the gathering space for some reason. I yank the doors open and enter the gathering room. I see chairs everywhere and people from my pack sitting down. As I walk down the aisle I see people crying or praying silently. I then get to the front of the room and I see a coffin? I walk up to the coffin and I can't stop myself from lifting the lid. I look into the coffin and my heart stops once I see who's inside. It's Luke. His perfect face is still and his soft eyes are closed. He's wearing a nice black suit with a white rose pinned to his tux. My hand trembles as tears fall down my cheeks. I begin to cry on the coffin, and I don't care if everyone is watching. 

I then cry,"Oh Luke. I'm so, so sorry." My whole body shakes in agony as I cry over my dead mate. This can't be real, he can't be dead. I close my eyes and let the grief take me.

DREAM OVER

I open my eyes and I'm met by darkness. I feel the hard ground under me and I can kind of make out my cage door. I sit up blindly and lean against my cage. A tear travels down my cheek at the images of my dream. Is he really dead? Is the love of my life gone forever? More tears fall down my cheeks at the thought of Luke really being dead. My whole body shakes as I cry in my small cage. I miss him so much. I've been here so long, I don't think I can hold on much longer. I'm in pain all the time and even my dreams aren't safe anymore. Everything is falling apart. I sigh because tomorrow will bring only more pain. I never get any relief because nothing is relieving anymore. Everything is painful and has torture in it. I close my eyes and pray that I won't dream anymore tonight. I let the darkness take me as I fall asleep****