Not Gonna Fall In Love With You

Chapter TwentyThree

Hey loyal reader, sorry for the late update...it's a bit unedited, sorry foe that too.

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This did not happen. It cannot happen. I can't afford this to happen. Please tell me it was just a nightmare, and I can't go to bed again, and forget all about it. Please.

It did happen. You know it did, and believe it or not, you are glad about this.

No I am not! I shouted back at my inner conscience. I am not glad about this. I can't even get over the fact that it took place in reality. I had just accepted the fact that I liked him to myself, but me telling this to him, right now on this time, it's not right. It can't be.

We are not supposed to be together. We are worlds apart. I just broke up with my boyfriend, I shouldn't even be thinking about him now. And what makes me think that we are gonna be together? He doesn't even like me.

He never even looks me in the eye, when we talk. Yeah, I am going crazy.

I told Kyle I like him. I spoiled everything. We might never even be friends now. All because of me. All because this stupid thing I did.

Is that stupid thing, the fact that you like him more than you ever liked Nate?

No, that's completely irrational. I was in love with Nate, and I barely like Kyle.

You were never in love with him. Afterall you only fall in love once. Everything else was just a hint of what love is.

No, really, I was in love with Nate. I mean, I was right?

Are you seriously gonna go there? We both know you were never in love. Unless now, you know with Kyle.

Okay, was she just born crazy or did her mother drop her when she was young? Because seriously, I am not in love with Kyle, its... It's complicated, and too soon.

Whatever. You told him about your feelings, and no matter what you say or do it's not gonna change.

Well that's true. I need to understand that this did happen. And now instead of saying it didn't I need to think about what to do next. I need to work on it and make sure I don't lose Kyle as a friend too.

I need to think hard and I need to do it fast.

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2 days. 48 hours. 2880 minutes. 172800 seconds. That's exactly how long I have been trying to contact Kyle. Okay not two days exactly, but honestly I wouldn't want to count out the 2 hours of sleep I did have. Cause, honestly I couldn't stop thinking about him then also.

The way he laughs on everything even though it's not funny. The way he smiles in the most wrong situations. They way he eats like he hasn't been fed food for a century. The way his hair becomes messy, and may I add extremely sexy, when he starts shaking it too much. The way his eyes sparkle when he speaks about something he likes. The way...

I can't do this anymore.

I can't keep liking him harder everyday, when I know he wants nothing to do with me. That is why he shut me out for two whole days. That's why he made sure not to come face to face with me in school.

And, oh! Nate won. Yes, he won the elections, looks like my speech did work out pretty well. And boy did he look happy. Well that's one thing, that turned out right.

*Door Bell Rings*

Who must it be now? Is it Kyle? What if he finally made his mind that he wants to talk to me? Oh, please be true.