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Tessa.
You know that feeling when everything is wrong and you just wanna start all over?...That feeling when you don't know how to fix whats making you upset but you just want it to end...Like the person you once knew the most turned out to be totally different and you feel all alone?...Your heart is broken but you hide it so you don't feel selfish for bringing your problems on others.
I pulled on a random teeshirt and pants to walk outside, to sit alone in the middle of these woods wishing i could just run but knowing there's a huge cement gate blocking me from the world and who i was...or who i thought i was...
The people i'm supposed to trust the most lied to me for years and hurt me but made me think it was okay so i didn't tell anyone...When i finally grew up and refused you took it from me!...You took everything from me Dad!...You raped and molested me ever since i was 7...I became this disgusting girl because of you but you blamed it all on me...and i took the hits...the pain and now im here where nothing is different...
My loneliness is still present but am i really lonely if i'm welcoming Sadness, Depression and pain into my life?...
All the hurt from school wasn't the worst like everybody expects...When i get home i get raped i get hit and i take it so i can just get outta there but now i can't...Because i'm here...I'm here with people who don't give one shit about me...Not o-"
" We do Tessa...We care about you" Savana said knocking me out my angry spoken journal entry. I looked up with tears in my eyes seeing Aidan, Frankie, and Savana all standing over me " You just gotta stop pushing us away...we're not Nate...we understand you...especially me" Savana said plopping down in front of me. I wiped my cheeks looking down.
" You know, When you first got here last month Savana made fun of me for wanting to call you bunny so i didn't but now i don't care...You're my Bunny" Frankie smiled laying his head on my lap. I sweetly smiled playing in his hair.
" There's that Smileee...Coochie coochie cooo"Aidan joked tickling my cheek. I rolled my eyes flickig his nose and giving him the middle finger. He gasped holding his heart. " How rude!" he said in a baby voice.
" Stephanie...Shut the hell up" Sav swat his arm. Aidan glared at her. " We love you sis...forever and always" Sav smiled fist bumping me cheek. I laughed shaking my head.
" Ya know...you said something about breaking out...Why don't we?..." I asked looking at Aidan. He furrowed his eyebrows.
" These bracelets are tracking devices...we can't" Savana said waving her wrist in my face. I squinted my eyes seeing a blinking red light on her bracelet.
I sighed falling back in the dirt.
" i want to get out of here...Go somewhere maybe...i just wanna get out if this damn town..." i mumbled staring up at the blank blue sky.
" Don't we all" Sav sighed falling right beside me.
Soon we were all in a circle shape with our feet touching and our eyes scanning the afternoon sky until the sun started to set.
" May I ask what you kids are doing out here after curfew?" The sound of Nicholas filled our ears making us all groan sitting up glaring at the man always in a suit.
" Trying to get away from the depressing white walls and have at least a little freedom...Can we at least take these stupid tracker bracelets off?...We're locked in here anyway" Savana ranted rolling her eyes.
" You know i cannot do that Savana Darling, but i can send all three of you to your rooms" he said cockily smiling. We all rolled our eyes standing up.
" Nickkkk...Can Tess and i share tonight?...I don't wanna be alone" Sav pouted wrapping her arms around my torso.
" Yes, but do not tell anyone i gave you permission or that's the last time i give you anything..." he said serious squinting his eyes. we nodded smiling before running off.
" I have plans for tonight"
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" Your room is much bigger than mine, Aidan's is too...I hate it" Savana ranted walking into my room with her light pink night gown on. I snickered looking over the choice of clothing.
" Savana in pink is the best thing ever" i giggled pull my hair up into a messy bun. Savana stuck her tongue out climbing in bed beside me.
Once i got comfortable beside her she tightly wrapped her arms around me and laid her head in the crook of my neck, I furrowed my eyebrows confused by the action but brushed it off.
" Do you mind if i do this?...I feel safe this way...sorry" she said quietly into my neck. I looked down at her biting my lip.
" It's fine...just don't kill me in my sleep" i joked not actually thinking it was funny but to my surprise she giggled scooting closer.
" Goodnight Tessa..." she sniffed. I nodded pulling the covers over our bodies.
Sleep started to take over me and my eyes slowly fluttered closed but shot back open when i felt Savana softly kiss along my jaw. I sat up wide eyed scooting over.
" W-What're you doing?" i asked covering myself feeling really naked all of a sudden. Savana sat up chewing on her lip.
" Uhm...I-I'm so sorry...i didn't mean to make you uncomfortable...You're not gay an-"
"I-I wasn't expecting that..." i said looking around with my hands covering my half naked body.
Savana looked up and bit her lip scooting closer cupping my cheek.
" It could be something we do secretly...just for fun" she sweetly smiled looking down at my lips then back in my eyes " you'll like it i promise" she smiled scooting so close our breathing pattern was mimicking each others. I bit my lip watching her lean in more and more.
Finally our lips met and a little bit of excitement shot through me making me smile raising my hand to the back of her neck. Savana slightly moaned into my mouth roaming her hands down my side and up my shirt, cupping my boob in her hand. I gasped giving her enough time to stick her tongue in my mouth without warning. The kiss started to become more and more heated but got stopped by the sound of the door clicking.
Savana and i both pulled away wide eyes getting under the covers quickly before Nicholas walked in to check on us.
" Goodnight girls, Breakfast will be served early tomorrow morning so be awake at 6 or we'll wake you up ourselves" He said.
Usually that would make us groan but we were both a giggling mess over what just happened. I bit my lip staring at Savana who did the same with me.
" Goodnight..." Nicholas said one last time before walking out. Savana smiled grabbing my hand intertwining it with hers and giving me a soft peck on my lips. I smiled blushing uncontrollably.
" Goodnight baby"
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