Freak.

22 | Little stoner boy.

Tessa.

" Are you ever gonna open that package from Nate?" JJ asked sitting beside Jack and I while he helped me with my homework.

Tiera is my legal guardian now so she was able to get me homeschooled where i do the work home and she or the boys turn it in for me...she thinks its better for me mentally then to go back to everyone's tormenting...even if it's only for 1 month.

" I don't know if i want to...it hurt...t-that he left me...I-"

" He was just trying to help...i mean...Nate was going crazy every day without you..." He said twisting his lip.

was?

" Yea...He started smoking and drinking more and fighting...Then he just disappeared..." I frowned looking at the yellow package envelope just sitting casual on my desk

" C-Can you give me a minute?" i asked placing the package on my lap. They both nodded kissing my cheeks on their way out.

As soon as my bedroom door closed behind them...i opened the package with a deep breathe. There was a long 2 page letter , a few pictures of us from years back...i weakly smiled looking at cure little 13/14 year old Nate and I. I unfolded the first page of notes and began reading.

Dear Princess ( corny i know)

I'm quite aware that you hate me now and i'm coping with that again right now...it sucks...it really really does because all i wanna do is hold you and kiss you...but i know that you being in that place helped you...Im sure you've heard but i've been having so much trouble without you here. It broke my heart that wasn't there to help you or that i was too late...i started smoking more and doing more hard drugs i probably couldn't tell you the name of and drinking back to back...I was trying to run from something...your hate?...the love you lost for me?...I don't know honestly but i needed to leave. Surprisingly Derek and i became friends, mainly because we were both dying inside without that beautiful smile of yours...we apologized to each other and became friends because of cute little old you :). I never wanted to leave you and it killed me knowing i made you cry...knowing i hurt you so badly...knowing i wasn't able to save you...at first i thought i was making it worse by putting you in that place but i kept ignoring it hoping that you would be thankful or something but i was also expecting you to scream in my face and yell how much of a pussy i was because thats what i am...I left you...I took off and left you...and i hate myself everyday for it. I tried to imagine how you felt in there but it only made me feel more and more like shit until i cried about it then started feeling numb inside...soon along i just...i gave up...Today...The day i came to visit you...the last time i saw you...Was my last day in Omaha, Nebraska

I froze tearing up

J said he disappeared but...no.

I unfolded the 2nd piece paper as quick as i could skimming through the first words before letting out a breathe of relief

I decided there was nothing here for me anymore...i was 18 so i had everything i needed to leave...i've already been living on my own this whole time...i stayed there because i wanted to be there with you...You are...you were my bestfriend and i also loved everything about you...i was truthfully in love with you, i almost went crazy over that whole Derek thing...i was drowning on jealous and anger and most importantly fear...fear of you leaving me because i needed you...i needed you so much it hurt...When i found out what happened to you i wanted to kill your dad and that was my plan before i would leave but once Derek and i pulled up the cops were already there and arresting him...your mom saw me but we didn't exchange any words because we pulled off right away and got on the road to California...I vowed to get us both out here when we were 15 and i stick with that...even if you hate me...when you finally turn 18, you will be in your own home here in your dream state...now i owe that to you even more...If you want to get in contact with me...my number is 310-805 - 3338...I love you Tess...i will always love you Tess...

and that was the end of the 2nd part of the letter...the letter that made me cry...that made me hurt inside...

I never meant to hurt Nate...I do love him...

I grabbed my phone from my desk holding it in my hand for a minute just debating what i should do.

Call him you'll regret it if you don't. But what if i'm disappointed?. You won't be! trust me! He's practically a fiend for your voice...call your bestfriend.

I bit my lip opening my phone app tapping the dial keypad icon after fighting with my thoughts on what to do...

" 310...8-805...333...8" i said the number softly while i tapped them, listening to the phone ring and ring waiting for an answer.

Finally the ringing stopped and i heard a click.

" Hello?" Nate's raspy but soothing voice rang through my ears causing me to subconsciously smile wide.

" Why hello my little stoner boy..."

THE END!

SEQUEL?!...who knows loves