captive « j.b

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Cam's POV

Sabrina was safe and that's all I truly cared about. She made it out alive. I saved her, but I didn't save myself. It made absolutely no sense. I was confused on myself. Where I was heading with my life.

From the moment I was kidnapped I realized I had no purpose. At least I felt like I didn't. I had been fighting to breathe yet here I am alive, wishing I had something to keep me going. I mean, it was Sabrina .. but I'm pretty sure she hates me too.

a week later

I was sitting outside of my job just contemplating my life. I was on my lunch. I had nothing but a hot chocolate and a muffin.

It just seemed to be one of those days. The days where it would be cloudy yet beautiful. It wasn't a dark type of cloudy, it was a peaceful kind. The one that made you think about everything, anyone, anything, you name it.

I jumped up and sat up in my seat. I didn't know if I was happy or scared. It was.. Justin.

"Wha- what are you doing here?" I said shocked.

"Shut up. Act normal or I'm leaving." He said and I suddenly felt annoyed. I slouched back into my seat and continued drinking my hot cocoa.

We sat there in silence, literal silence. Starring at each other. He was annoying. Bastard.

"So you gonna say anything like hello?" He said back.

"Last time I checked you told me to shut up." I said.

He chuckled, "Last time I checked, you don't listen to anyone."

"What are you doing here anyways? I didn't ask you to come visit me?" I said angrily. He seemed taken back. Maybe even slightly hurt by my remark.

"Join my team." He said. "Everything's going back to normal but the crew is happy, I'm leading them and there aren't any issues. We stopped collecting girls. I told you."

He must be super fucked up in the mind because I don't know where in hell he thought I would come back.

"What makes you think I want to go back there Justin!?" I said with my eyes getting watery. "The whole point was to get Sabrina and myself out of there!"

"And how's that working for you?" He said taking my muffin and raising his eyebrow.

I quickly wiped the one tear that fell from my eye. I couldn't tell if he was purposely trying to break me down.

"Cam, I'm not trying to be a dick—"

"But you are! And I still don't get why you're here. Leave me the hell alone. I never wanna see you again." I said getting up but he got up and grabbed me pulling me to the side alley we had by the shop.

"If you mean what you say I swear I will never come back again! But tell me you're living the life. You have something to look forward to? You have no one and I'm trying to give you something! Stop being the stubborn bitch you were to Kendrick before I kill you. I'm offering you a legit family. If you want to be alone the rest of your life then so be it." He said letting me go and walking away. I had tears in my eyes for sure now. He looked back and told me, "think about it, I'll be back when I can" and in a second he was gone.

I wasn't crying because of Justin, but myself. He was right, I was so miserable and depressed. I had no one. I HAVE no one.

There was only one thing I wanted to do right now.. see Sabrina. I couldn't do that so the next best thing was to just go home. Justin gave me enough money to live on my own for a good 8-12months. Everything was just so confusing right now and I had to come up with a decision. Join a gang and risk NEVER talking to Sabrina again or try talking to Sabrina again?

I decided to go for a walk. It had been slightly raining in California. The usual, it would be sunny in a few hours anyways. In fact the moon would be out soon.

I shook my head in frustration because I wasn't used to being out anymore. The sun, the moon.. Mother Nature. I was in some horrible deep state of mind. Not the good kind I'll tell you that.

Justin wanted me to come back and a part of me wanted to because I loved him. I love him. Or at least I feel something like that. Then another part never wants Sabrina to find out I even have these thoughts. She's young but she would forgive me eventual. I would hope, but not if I was in a gang.

I realized I ended up back at my apartment. I open the door to have it slammed shut by someone and then everything else happens super fast. Someone else was I my apartment. I wasn't alone. The question is who is it because it definitely wasn't Justin.

Short chapter. Sorry loves. Next chapter coming out in a few hours though💖